fear of caves?
I remember back, when I was a little girl(10 or so), of my family and I going to a cave. All I remember was crying on the elevator on the way down and this nice man on it making jokes(it didn't help). After that, it's a big empty space, but, the funny thing is, I remember very well what happened after we left the caves. It was a nice day. We crossed a bridge of a waterfall and took pictures. Someone in our party had to use the restroom and I walked with them back to the gift-store. I remember it all in good detail.. except the cave.
Recently, we went to another cave in Kentucky. I was slightly nervous, but fine... until I saw the cave. I became terrified. It was all I could do to place one foot in front of another as we stepped down the steps into it. I’m asamed to say I started crying soon after, and I am not one prone to cry. Thankfully, I kept it quiet though and it wasn’t until my brother noticed(remember, it was dark) about 10 mintues later that it was brought to my family’s attention. He tried to comfort me and I wish it had worked, but right at that time I went into denile.
I kept telling myself, in my mind, that I was only a few intches below ground. It worked.
I had convinced myself so, that when I saw the stairs leading back up I was shocked, and my fear came back in full force. It was hard just to place on foot in front of the other and I was partically blind by tears.
Please tell me what’s wrong with me and how I can fix this?
I’m still young(17) and there’s a good chance my friends or relitives will want to go in a cave again. I don’t want this to happen, it’s embarrassing and I don’t want to ruin anyone else’s fun.
Any help is gratefully appreciated.