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Bipolar but is that the only thing wrong

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  • Posted By: ineedhelp
  • March 2, 2007
  • 07:05 PM

I am a 33yr old mother of 5 whose marriage is on the rocks-after losing my job last October and a boss telling me I really needed to talk to someone I realized there was something very wrong. I hid the mail from my husband. I got involved with payday loans. Then I started writing myself paychecks and now I am going to trial. The problem is why did I start doing all of this and why can I not tell anyone how much I took? I went to a mental hospital the day after I was fired because of suicidal thoughts. I was there for 3wks. I felt better when I came home but now it is all crushing down on me. My husband throws everything in my face on a daily basis, tells me this bipolar diag. is a bunch of ***t, and hates me. It is so hard to face day to day-I could be facing prison and I feel like my life is at an end. Please help me I am so lost and part of me does not want to live.:(

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  • Hang in there girl. Are you on any type of Medication for the bipolar? Have you sought out a 2nd opinion? Are you seeing anyone on a regular basis for this diagnosis? Your husband sounds like he is scared, and is acting that out with his anger. Anger is always a secondary emotion. You and your child need to be in a safe supportive environment, especially facing all you are at this time in your life. I don't know where you live, but don't give up! There is help out there, you just have to reach out for it. I was diagnosed as bi-polar, but no that was not the only issue. And now looking back I am not even sure it was accurate. To a point it may have been, but when a Doctor told me for the first time I had pretty severe Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, I did not believe him. But you know what, as I talked it over with him, and researched all I could about it, it was right on. All I have to say, is do not give up. Life can be ugly and hard, but it won't be that way always.
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  • Thank you curious for responding..I feel so lost..I am on medication I take Tegretol 200mg. @9am/1pm then 400mg @9pm Serequel 25mg at 9am/1pm then 800mg of Serequel at 9pm- I feel like I am a walking pill bottle-must my Dr. says it is manditory that I take it- I did not get a second opinion yet because the first time in my entire life I opened up to someone---Everyone is in so much disbelief right now because of what has happened to me..:eek: I know that my husband is hurting, I just need him so much-I am having to order all of my bankstatements cause I don't even remember taking all the money that is in question...From 2004-2006 something just was not right in my life---People look at me like I am crazy-"how could you had took money?"="Why can you not remember what you took?" I am just feeling like I am really crazy!!!
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