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At my wits end

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  • Posted By: Love_Game
  • September 15, 2010
  • 03:59 AM

Hey all.

Well I'm only going to mention the mental side of things, being going through a lot of health issues lately, and my mind state is the most I'm concered about.

Background:

Twenty year old female, living in Ireland
Average weight
Stop smoking two weeks ago.

Well at the start of Summer I started to get really sick. Docs still don't know what's wrong with me and I'm currently getting tests, scans and blood work done.

I was diagnosed as having GAD ( Generalized Anxiety Disorder ) in June. Was put on Lyrica for that, and even though the dose was up three times I feel like its still not working.

When this first started happening to me I would worry about everything and anything to the point where I would give myself a panic attack. Ever since I got sick in May I haven't been sleeping. At the start this was due to the pain in my back, then to the worrying thoughts, now its just that Im not sleepy. I know many people wont believe me when I say I dont feel sleep, my doctor even has trouble believing this, but its true.

My GP decided to check my thyroid as he though that maybe this was why I was like this, it came back high but not high enough to treat.

Now I'm at the point where I don't care about anything anymore. Its like my personality has gone and Im just a shell of my former self. I can't seem to feel anything anymore, like I have no feelings what so ever, but yet I can cry for an hour straight without knowing what it is I'm even crying for.

I'm just really at my wits end with all of this. I don't even care whats happening to me anymore. I had an appointment today with the head shrink at the hospital but he had to cancel since he was sick, and he didn't want anyone else to see me, so know I have to wait God knows how long.

I just feel like a zombie, not human at all, especially on top of all my health problems. To make matters worst I start a new college now in less than 4 hours and I havn't slept in four days.

Does anybody out there know even a little bit about whats happening to me? Or have any similar experiences? I just feel like locking myself in my room and be done with it all. If I could sleep I would sleep as many hours as the day away that I could

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