Recently (few months back) I was diagnosed with Aspergers syndrome. In many ways it bought me relief, but I still find myself with more questions than answers. The main one is being Sensory issues. I can't quite explain how they effect me, but they are significant enough to effect my daily living. Most people perceive me as normal until they start to see my ticks and quirks.
One question that has been frustrating me for quite some time is eye contact.
Why can't I make solid eye contact with people? Why does it hurt?
Its like everything goes distorted and I can't make sense of things, I become disorientated when I do it. Its like looking up at the sun, you can't keep fixated on it because of the intensity.
It makes me sad. :(
I want to understand how the Aspergers brain is wired up and how it plays its role in social environments.