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are these mental health symptoms?

Posted In: Mental conditions 4 Replies
  • Posted By: anothernobody
  • September 25, 2008
  • 07:37 AM


I'm, concerned that I might need help. But, I'm not entirely sure where to go to get it - or if I'd just be wasting a psychiastrist's time. I'm not even sure what my main symptom is.

I have these depressed phases. I don't have manic phases - just times when I'm not depressed. During my depressed phases I tend to have these little episodes.

Um, during an episode, It gets really hard to speak. Like, I'll try to say something, and either it just won't come out or it'll come out all mixed up or it'll come out using words that are only remoltely related to what I was actually trying to say. I'll have a hard time remembering things. Not long term things, short term things. Things like "why did I just walk into this room?" and I'll have this weird sensation in my head. The best way I can think to describe the sensation is "it feels fuzzy." like my whole head is covered in a fuzz. Sometimes, worse times, it feels like it's not fuzzy, when it should be. Then it feels like it aught to be fuzzy, but the fuzz wass scrapped off too close to the skin.

Sometimes, during one of these episodes, I'll get afraid to look in the mirror. I don't know why - but at the time it always seems like the worst thing I could do would be to look in the mirror. It feels like if I was to look in the mirror, I'd just see something horrible. I never have, though usually by the time I work up the courage to look in the mirror, the episode is over.

Sometimes, during one of these episodes, I'll start to feel like I'm rotting. I don't know how else to describe it. It frightens me now, when I'm not thinking like that and I'm worried about what's wrong with me. Especially since I've contemplated trying to remove the rottingg bits myself with a kitchen knife. I'm not suicidal - but that wasn't the motivation at the time anyway. The though process was "My liver is rotting. It's going to poison my blood. The rot will probalby infect the surounding tissue. I should remove it..."

It's always compounded by the fact that at the time I can't seem to manage to speak to say anything to anyone about it.

So, anyway. I don't think this is quite Depression, and I don't think I'm Bi-Polar. I think I had ADHD when I was a kid, but I'm pretty sure that these aren't ADHD symptoms. I've tried looking at things like Schizophrenia, but again, it doesn't seem like it's quite that bad either.

Could someone help me?

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  • Fear of looking at yourself the mirror and that you feel like you're rotting... Do you feel like you're a bad person? That you deserve to suffer?Why don't you stop punishing, torturing, yourself needlessly and go see a doctor about your concerns.
    alias2277b 18 Replies
    • October 2, 2008
    • 05:20 PM
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  • I agree with alias2277b...stop torturing yourself and tell your doctor or a psychiatrist, what you are going through. Your periods of depression come and go...you could have bipolar disorder (manic depression, depressive type), or cyclical depression. You can be helped, and will be a lot better for it! Good luck. Marionstar
    marionstar 228 Replies
    • October 5, 2008
    • 02:54 AM
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  • I think you are showing signs of a mental health issue from what you said... i'd call it a "delusion" when you feel like you are rotting and even considered getting a knife to remove the rotting part. best not trying to diagnose yourself but get a referal from your doctor to a psychologist. Dont wait in case the delusions get stronger, mental health issues can go off in a big way if left.
    taniaaust1 2267 Replies
    • October 5, 2008
    • 10:33 AM
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  • Yes those sound like mental health symptoms. If you are hurting yourself you should seek help immidiately. I've experienced pretty much everything you're going through and it won't go away on its own. But there are ways to deal with it and get healthy!
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • October 9, 2008
    • 04:27 AM
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