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angry moody mom

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  • Posted By: twinsmum27
  • May 15, 2007
  • 00:45 AM

I'm a 27 year old single mother of twin 5 year old girls. For years I've been on and off medications sometimes feeling like a personal pharmacy.
I never really recieved a positive diagnosis and not really sure how I can be on medication thats supposed to be helping me but its not.
It's so frustrating to have a psychiatric disease because there are so many different ones that my symptoms fit into about five different disorders.
I know I'm not crazy but my mood swings were so bad today that my mom suggested that I should go to the emergency room, I didn't. I went to work. I keep crying for no reason sometimews and other times I'm crying for about ten different reasons.
The past week my anger has been mostly directed at my girls. I feel very distant from them, almost like i don't care, I do but there is no feeling there, I'm basically not interested in them at all. i feel like the worst mother.
This is what I am feeling: on edge most of the time, racing thoughts, easily distracted, can't concentrate, focus, people talk or I hear somrthing and it doens't register, high/low, up/down, antisocial, multiple angry outburts, rage, uncontrollable frustration, empty "dead" feeling inside, crying spells that are easily triggered.

Thanks for letting share my words, wish me luck at the dr tomorrow:confused:

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  • Hi, If it makes you feel any better I have also turned into an angry mother who is verbally abusive to her 5 and 3 year old girls. I feel like a big disappointment to myself, kids, and husband and that they cannot stand to be around me. Please let me know what your diagnosis and treatment plan are. I am very curious. Hang in there, Gina
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  • Thanks Gina! It's certainly reassuring to know that I'm not the only mom dealing with major psych. issues.I have yet to get a diagnosis. Instead of listening to my issues he ordered a blood test and gave me a sedative. Oh yea I feel alot better, lol.I have never felt like this in my entire life and I feel like nobody is going to help me , Sometimes I think Dr's are just guessing and using their patients as guinea pigs. Anyway thanks again, and if I may ask what did you do for treatment if you did any! Caroline
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  • i am sorry for all that you are both going through, and am not surprised that you are not getting relief from meds - so many have awful side effects and don't get to the cause of your symptoms. Please try to get to a naturopath, homeopath, nutritionist, NAET practitioner or Oriental Medical doctor. The fact is, most Western MD's have had about 30 minutes of nutritional training, and a lot of your symptoms sound like they may be caused by a nutritional deficiency, or by a malabsorption problem. On average the above practitioners have had more training in nutrition and look at psycho/emotional issues in a more holistic way. NAET (Nambudripad Allergy Elimination Technique) is a fantastic, revolutionary treatment that gets to the root of many psycho/emotional illnesses. It is possible that you are having an allergic/autoimmune response to basic nutrients (vit C, B vitamins, protein, are just a few examples), or foods, or environmental causes. NAET can test you for this and clear the allergic response from your body...it works and has helped me SO MUCH! Keep in mind that a Psychiatrist is trained to prescribe drugs, period. If you want to get to the bottom of your illness, I believe you need to look at it in a more holistic way. Please consider these options, and I hope you get some relief. Best wishesDOM
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  • RAPID CYCLING BIPOLAR! You just described all of the symptoms of rapid cycling bipolar. This diagnosis would NOT mean you are crazy. The rapid cycling part is what throws so many doctors. Many psych doctors still have it stuck in their heads that to be bipolar you must have extended periods of time being up, then down, then up, then down. I have rapid cycling bipolar disorder, and believe me it doesn't work that way at all! My mood can change at the drop of a hat-no forget that-a hat doesn't even need to be dropped for me to go from so positive and bubbly it would make Cameron Diaz nauseous (sorry if you're a fan, I like her too,it's just she was just on Jimmy Kimmel & well, you get the idea) to sobbing hysterically or snapping my mother's head off (and she's not just my mother, she's my best friend). By the way, that little Cameron Diaz tangent, just a miniscule tangent in comparison to how my mind can shoot, not wander, but shoot, off. In fact, overuse of parentheses when typing is an official symptom of both ADHD and rapid cycling bipolar ;) People often mistake the manic part of manic depression to mean the person gets in a really, really good mood. That doesn't have to be the case. You can be depressed in your "manic" stage-this would be when your thoughts are racing, you feel like you're stuck in fast forward, you may even breath faster (or shakily), and your heart can beat faster. Many doctors will hand you a checklist or ask you to tell them your symptoms, and they have a set number of symptoms you have to have to be diagnosed as having depression. When you reach that number, unless there's something glaringly obvious, like you randomly become so giddy you leap through sprinklers doing those mid-air splits ballerinas do, all the time giggling like a mad woman or jabbering like a Valley Girl on speed, they say, "Well, she's met the requirements of depression," and they don't bother to explore farther. Your other symptoms might as well not exist to them.Then they prescribe you an antidepressant. It doesn't work. They prescribe a different one. IT doesn't work either. And so it goes. Most antidepressants don't work because they are not designed to treat rapid cycling bipolar. (Neither, by the way, is lithium, so you can breath a sigh of relief there). I urge you to do some research on RAPID CYCLING bipolar. Make sure you include the rapid cycling part. It is like an entirely different disorder. You know, we are so close in age, and what you are describing is so familiar (except instead of having twin 5-year-old girls, I have 8 cats {that's what marks me as crazy-not the diagnosis of rapid cycling bipolar ;) although to be fair, some of them do live at the barn and at home with me}, 3 dogs, a rabbit, and "...a horse of course..." OK, so I feel a little mania coming on right now. While my depression is terrible if untreated (I have been suicidal in past), I am happy to report that at least I got the fun kind of mania. Old &/or cheesey sci-fi/horror movies, here I come! (it's very late and I have to keep myself quiet).Oh, and it's important to remember different people can be helped differently for the same disorder -whether it's the right med, diet, exercise, therapist, meditation, life change, a combination of these(and it pretty much always takes a combination)- if it helps your problem and doesn't create or worsen any other ones, then that is the right treatment for you. One treatment plan that will always fail-no treatment at all.
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  • I'm a 27 year old single mother of twin 5 year old girls. For years I've been on and off medications sometimes feeling like a personal pharmacy.I never really recieved a positive diagnosis and not really sure how I can be on medication thats supposed to be helping me but its not.It's so frustrating to have a psychiatric disease because there are so many different ones that my symptoms fit into about five different disorders. I know I'm not crazy but my mood swings were so bad today that my mom suggested that I should go to the emergency room, I didn't. I went to work. I keep crying for no reason sometimews and other times I'm crying for about ten different reasons. The past week my anger has been mostly directed at my girls. I feel very distant from them, almost like i don't care, I do but there is no feeling there, I'm basically not interested in them at all. i feel like the worst mother.This is what I am feeling: on edge most of the time, racing thoughts, easily distracted, can't concentrate, focus, people talk or I hear somrthing and it doens't register, high/low, up/down, antisocial, multiple angry outburts, rage, uncontrollable frustration, empty "dead" feeling inside, crying spells that are easily triggered. Thanks for letting share my words, wish me luck at the dr tomorrow:confused:what was your outcome with yr doctor...
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