I'm a 27 year old single mother of twin 5 year old girls. For years I've been on and off medications sometimes feeling like a personal pharmacy.
I never really recieved a positive diagnosis and not really sure how I can be on medication thats supposed to be helping me but its not.
It's so frustrating to have a psychiatric disease because there are so many different ones that my symptoms fit into about five different disorders.
I know I'm not crazy but my mood swings were so bad today that my mom suggested that I should go to the emergency room, I didn't. I went to work. I keep crying for no reason sometimews and other times I'm crying for about ten different reasons.
The past week my anger has been mostly directed at my girls. I feel very distant from them, almost like i don't care, I do but there is no feeling there, I'm basically not interested in them at all. i feel like the worst mother.
This is what I am feeling: on edge most of the time, racing thoughts, easily distracted, can't concentrate, focus, people talk or I hear somrthing and it doens't register, high/low, up/down, antisocial, multiple angry outburts, rage, uncontrollable frustration, empty "dead" feeling inside, crying spells that are easily triggered.
Thanks for letting share my words, wish me luck at the dr tomorrow:confused: