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always living in a fantasy world.. help me..

Posted In: Mental conditions 9 Replies
  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • April 26, 2010
  • 02:48 PM




My mom has schizophrenia..she behaves violent and talks continuously during her ill"spans" which lasts for 15 or 20 days...In order to avoid being depressed i think(imagine) that i lived a happy life with some untrue characters.even when i watch any thrilling movies in tv i imagine that i was there in that movie playing a central role...It relieved me from my stress

but i had some self control that i need to think like this only for a few min and later i returned back to my regular works.inspite of all those hectic moments with my mom i was very good in my academics....all of a sudden when i was 15 i began to loose my self control and started to live in a "fantasy world" and thought of things that would never happen....i know that it is not real,but i can't stop or control my thoughts..

if some person insults me in reality i just ignore it at that moment,but later that incident occupies my mind fully and i feel very depressed,mainly i won't b able to do anything and i can't concentrate in anything..then i begin to imagine in my fantasy world that i gave a good shot back to that person..

At 16 when i was preparing for my exams i suddenly felt that something was telling me "if i read this line 5 times only i will pass in this exam ".I think it may be ocd.even like,if i think of a particular person's face in my mind i would get more marks.Due to all these imaginations my thoughts began to deviate when i was studying.it was really painful for me and... in order to come out of this stress i began to imagine like 'i got very good marks and was the center of attraction in my class'..

slowly my imaginations grew and now i'm just living in a fantasy world with some unreal characters and sometimes with my friends in an unreal situation..

I just talking to the characters in my mind...
And sometimes i imagine 2 made-up stories running parallely in my mind..my characters r imaginary and sometimes real life people also..
if i'm alone i act out ,but in the presence of others it just keeps on going in my mind..Its like my mind is always occupied with something......

Bcoz of all these i have lost my interest in everything.I just hate going to college.. studying.. eating..anything

I feel vey uncomfortable when i am amidst group of people..If i think i shouldn't think of a particular incident I just keep thinking about that only..not able 2 control my thoughts..And what s more painful s that if i think of a person in my mind i imagine that my thoughts would be read by that person so i just can't focus on anything....

i perform some actions repeatedly because something tells me that if i dont do like that then my thoughts would be read by others and i would fail in all events in my life....I'm 19 now and recently whatever interesting i see or hear i just relate it to myself and imagine things...

and i'm not able to concentrate in a particular thought for more than a few minutes.immediately another thought rushes in my mind and all these things happen parllely in my mind. i'm just attending college for the sake of my parents.i feel very dejected if someone doesnt respond to me properly and immediately if something good happens i get excited(mood changes)....i am imagining some conversations with my classmates and think that i have contacts with some great presonalities...

when i said that i'm unable to concentrate in my studies to my parents they arent believing me and tell that due to interest in tv only i'm not studying nowadays."i'm always talking to some imaginary persons IN MY OWN WORLD"....feel suicidal at many times.cannot come to this real world.....I cant tell all this to my dad since he is already worried about my mother's condition.doctors say that schizophrenia is due to hereditary.so i'm afraid whether it has inherited to me also..i prefer to live in my fantasy world which is less painfull than in reality


i took an online psychological test and these r my results

Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Moderate
schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

I FEEL LIKE MY LIFE ITSELF HAS ENDED .... whats wrong with me and plzz suggest me what i should do...........

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  • I have the same thing. I do everything that you stated, and I'm having the same problem. It's ruining my life, and I can't find a way to stop it. I'm trying to use my own will to stop it, because I see it as an addiction. It's a coping mechanism to avoid reality.I'm trying to stop on my own, but I understand your problem. If it makes you feel better, I have no history of mental illness in my family. So I don't think it's hereditary.I do think it's necessary to find another 'more mature' coping mechanism, as my mother said (who's a mental health nurse). She said it's like having imaginary friends, and she said I need to find another way to cope with stress and depression (ex. writing in a journal, drawing...). But I need to find what works for me.This means it's a problem you can fix yourself (if you and I are experiencing the same thing).I hope this helped, and I understand it's really hard to stop it all by yourself. I've been trying to for eight-teen years.
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  • i have a parent with schizophrenia too (in my case it's my father). I've read that one has a 25% chance of getting this illness if one has a parent with it. You are obviously very concerned and do seem to have racing thoughts and some other issues eg possibly depression going on too.. i strongly suggest you to go and tell your doctor of your concerns.
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  • This sounds possibly like more than one mental illness. It sounds a bit like OCD, but it could possibly be schizophrenia? I would see a doctor just in case. Thinking about a "particular incident" does sound rather OCD related, but some of the other symptoms could be schizophrenia related. I would really, really, consult a doctor!
    sparkie 3 Replies Flag this Response
  • My mom has schizophrenia..she behaves violent and talks continuously during her ill"spans" which lasts for 15 or 20 days...In order to avoid being depressed i think(imagine) that i lived a happy life with some untrue characters.even when i watch any thrilling movies in tv i imagine that i was there in that movie playing a central role...It relieved me from my stress but i had some self control that i need to think like this only for a few min and later i returned back to my regular works.inspite of all those hectic moments with my mom i was very good in my academics....all of a sudden when i was 15 i began to loose my self control and started to live in a "fantasy world" and thought of things that would never happen....i know that it is not real,but i can't stop or control my thoughts.. if some person insults me in reality i just ignore it at that moment,but later that incident occupies my mind fully and i feel very depressed,mainly i won't b able to do anything and i can't concentrate in anything..then i begin to imagine in my fantasy world that i gave a good shot back to that person.. At 16 when i was preparing for my exams i suddenly felt that something was telling me "if i read this line 5 times only i will pass in this exam ".I think it may be ocd.even like,if i think of a particular person's face in my mind i would get more marks.Due to all these imaginations my thoughts began to deviate when i was studying.it was really painful for me and... in order to come out of this stress i began to imagine like 'i got very good marks and was the center of attraction in my class'.. slowly my imaginations grew and now i'm just living in a fantasy world with some unreal characters and sometimes with my friends in an unreal situation.. I just talking to the characters in my mind...And sometimes i imagine 2 made-up stories running parallely in my mind..my characters r imaginary and sometimes real life people also..if i'm alone i act out ,but in the presence of others it just keeps on going in my mind..Its like my mind is always occupied with something...... Bcoz of all these i have lost my interest in everything.I just hate going to college.. studying.. eating..anything I feel vey uncomfortable when i am amidst group of people..If i think i shouldn't think of a particular incident I just keep thinking about that only..not able 2 control my thoughts..And what s more painful s that if i think of a person in my mind i imagine that my thoughts would be read by that person so i just can't focus on anything.... i perform some actions repeatedly because something tells me that if i dont do like that then my thoughts would be read by others and i would fail in all events in my life....I'm 19 now and recently whatever interesting i see or hear i just relate it to myself and imagine things... and i'm not able to concentrate in a particular thought for more than a few minutes.immediately another thought rushes in my mind and all these things happen parllely in my mind. i'm just attending college for the sake of my parents.i feel very dejected if someone doesnt respond to me properly and immediately if something good happens i get excited(mood changes)....i am imagining some conversations with my classmates and think that i have contacts with some great presonalities... when i said that i'm unable to concentrate in my studies to my parents they arent believing me and tell that due to interest in tv only i'm not studying nowadays."i'm always talking to some imaginary persons IN MY OWN WORLD"....feel suicidal at many times.cannot come to this real world.....I cant tell all this to my dad since he is already worried about my mother's condition.doctors say that schizophrenia is due to hereditary.so i'm afraid whether it has inherited to me also..i prefer to live in my fantasy world which is less painfull than in reality i took an online psychological test and these r my results Paranoid: High Schizoid: Moderate schizotypal: Moderate Antisocial: Low Borderline: Very High Histrionic: High Narcissistic: High Avoidant: Very High Dependent: Moderate Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate I FEEL LIKE MY LIFE ITSELF HAS ENDED .... whats wrong with me and plzz suggest me what i should do........... Mate YOUR NORMAL, I once asked a shrink nearly everything you wrote, chin up & enjoy your life, if anyone has a problem with you --- it's THEIR problem not yours. Take Care Gazza ;)
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  • Hello, I am Helena everyone. and I can totally relate to what I have been reading.Ever since I was little(I can’t say how old), I would daydream about living in some type of world that was pleasing to me.I think a lot of it had to do with what I saw on TV(like “the Hills”)…fame,relationships,and other wordly things.It is a place that makes me pretend to be the perfect “me” and live the way I would like to live in real life.I don’t see why this has happened, for the most part, I think my childhood wasn’t all that bad, I used to be a cheerleader and have friends, I have just always wanted more..like popularity for example, it is so easy to strive to be accepted among the good ole’peers and I think the “fantasy world” helped me cope with reality a bit.In fact, I do not think I ever saw this as that much of an issue…until now.You see, within the past year, I have become a born-again Christian…and when I say that, I mean I want to live fundementally according to the Bible.What my walk with God has helped me realize is, I think, the source to all of his madness.The Bible speaks of all of us being born with a sinful nature, we were born in sin, concieved in sin,and drink it down like it is water.Out of our heart procede ungodliess,pride,sin,and all other types of wordly things you can image.If you don’t believe me,listen to what this one preacher said..I will try and paraphrase it:He said if he could take your heart, every thought that has passed in it,every desire,every deed you have ever done and put it on a video tape to show the world,you would be so embarassed and so ashamed because you have thought things so vile-you would not want you closest friend to know.(BTW-this is not to be rude to you all, for I want to seek out to you guys and love you like myself :)….Anways,I think this can be the problem…our sinful natures!If we don’t get the opportunity in life to live them out to the fullest, then the thoughts begin to procede from the heart(which the Bible says is desperately wicked and deceitful above all things)…these “fantasy worlds” are nothing more than we, living through our flesh, in a fantasy, trying to satisfy our wicked hearts.Again, I mean not to insult any of you-I know the seriousness of this condition now.This night, I did not go to sleep(it is now 2:53 A.M)..I had a fantasy…I felt something was wrong with me doing so,however.So, I prayed to God and now I am desterminded to get rid of this once and for all.If it will bring the Lord glory that this fantasy be gone from me, than may he heal me, if it will not bring him glory then nevertheless,let his will be done.I am going to do my best to thrust my helpless soul upon the arms of the Almighty Savior…there is no worse slavery than being a slave to your own thoughts.I want to be free from the thoughts that focus on my flesh, on this world, things of this world. lusts of this world….AS the Apostale Paul tell us(this, I feel, can really help us all, it is so accurate):“Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of *****t;”May the Love of God be with you all my dear friends, If I have been too pushy or, as some say, “shoved my beleif down your thought”..I apologize, but I feel the Lord is really bringing me somewhere with this.As I became a Christian, I have let go of so much sin in my life-still I struggle with daily and I will not be overcome by evil,but overcome evil with good.By the Grace of the God and Father of our Lord ***********t be with you all.Have a great day,all of you!:)
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  • I have experienced quite a lot of what you have especially the fantasy world I just very recently, after trying very hard for a while, stopped living in a fantasy. You have the most important thing on your side, you are aware of it and of the fact that it isn't real, and if you really want to you can stop I know it seems impossible but I've done it, mostly by keepin myself busy but once you take it out of your regular pattern of activity it gets easier
    TheThreeMes 2 Replies
    • August 12, 2010
    • 11:22 PM
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  • I have bipolar 2. I had a stepfather who had schizophrenia. Once I cleaned up my life I went on to study mental health/addictions in college and became a mental health worker. While I am not a doctor I do have a lot of experience.It's actually a 10% chance of inheriting schizophrenia. Also living with a parent who has schizophrenia (or any mental illness in an acute stage) can be very traumatizing to the child. You might want to see a doctor who specializes in PTSD and Dissociative Disorder and Dissociative Identity Disorder (there is a difference).The online tests really aren't very accurate as they do not take the entire life history of the person participating in the test. Of course you're going to feel neurotic, on edge, you'll think you're narcissistic because you're not used to being able to put yourself first and look after YOU and YOUR WELL BEING. Of course you'll have emotional dysregulation problems. Really, get a full assessment by a TRAINED professional. It will be worth it. And you are still young. If you get help now it will give you a greater chance of success in overcoming these issues.Also, if you had schizophrenia you would not be aware that something is wrong ;)
    bluelights 4 Replies
    • October 16, 2010
    • 08:28 PM
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  • None of my family iz sick, but itz like, if i hear a song or play a game, i'm obsessed wid it nd i sgtart to create stories with it. like, i'm an all pwr ful being dat will save the world..... nd more stuff like dat.please if u think i'm not crazy nd feel da same way, reply
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  • I'm with you, I'm 29 now , I've the same problem what ever you have mentioned . But some times if I'm very busy occupied with work, I dont have it.

    I started having it from an early age around 13, but never realized what was happening.

    This has made me very lazy person , as I enjoy being in my thought process

    I want to be normal, I've realized today after reading your thread, it needs time to recover. I'm just going as life is taking me to
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    • August 14, 2014
    • 05:38 AM
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