Hi, first of all, let me say english is not my native language so forgive me if I misspell something in this message.
I'm 28 years old, and since I was 24 I quit my studies because of problems with my then gf and twin brother. I went to se a therapist and didn't take any drugs. Things were going ok, I was finding out where my thoughts came from, basically from my sick parents who always made me feel guilty. One year ago I went to this eco-village for a possibility to work as a computer techie. The camp was great but they had some strange ideas, like everything is connected in fractal ways, etc. When I came back from the interview in that village I had a psychotic surge, by that I mean I started hearing a voice, thought I was some kind of savior for mankind or something. When that went out I felt completely afraid of the outside world. I spent almost a year in suffering with anxiety. And since then I have my right foot always tingling, and have had fear attacks when I'm going out at night with people. These are the worse, I'm ok, with some people at night, then I start getting really nervous and thinking that it shows, then I become completely afraid of everybody and have to take a taxi home. Even during the taxi ride I am completely afraid that the taxi driver notices something strange in me. Besides that I have some deliriums like I feel that one advertising is a message directed at me. I want to continue my studies next September, but I'm afraid I wont be able to take them due to these panic attacks or ansiety attacks, and deliriums. Does anyone have any idea how to sort these out?
Thanks in advance