Hi, I'm Ant and I'm a 15 year old girl. For ages now i have been having these crazy paranoid delusions - I feel that there are people watching me
constantly, waiting until they have gathered enough evidence to 'bring me in' and interrogate me - they have bugged my room, there are hidden cameras throughout the house - I am being monitored 24/7 by unknown persecutors. I am so crazy that I have even tried holding conversations with the invisible persecutors, reasoning with them, arguing that they could never possibly reveal their findings, as they would reveal themselves in the process. These conversations have lasted for hours at a stretch.
I am also constantly worried about people talking about me behind my back, and am hypersensitive towards any sort of slight or insult. I hold grudges for years, and cannot trust anyone.
I feel like I'm losing control - every day I find it harder to hold it together, to stop myself from showing how I feel inside and betraying my innermost
What is wrong with me? Why am i such a paranoid freak? Will it ever stop?