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paranoia has taken over my life

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • September 2, 2007
  • 05:06 PM

Hi, I'm Ant and I'm a 15 year old girl. For ages now i have been having these crazy paranoid delusions - I feel that there are people watching me
constantly, waiting until they have gathered enough evidence to 'bring me in' and interrogate me - they have bugged my room, there are hidden cameras throughout the house - I am being monitored 24/7 by unknown persecutors. I am so crazy that I have even tried holding conversations with the invisible persecutors, reasoning with them, arguing that they could never possibly reveal their findings, as they would reveal themselves in the process. These conversations have lasted for hours at a stretch.

I am also constantly worried about people talking about me behind my back, and am hypersensitive towards any sort of slight or insult. I hold grudges for years, and cannot trust anyone.

I feel like I'm losing control - every day I find it harder to hold it together, to stop myself from showing how I feel inside and betraying my innermost
secrets.

What is wrong with me? Why am i such a paranoid freak? Will it ever stop?

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  • Hi, I'm Ant and I'm a 15 year old girl. For ages now i have been having these crazy paranoid delusions - I feel that there are people watching me constantly, waiting until they have gathered enough evidence to 'bring me in' and interrogate me - they have bugged my room, there are hidden cameras throughout the house - I am being monitored 24/7 by unknown persecutors. I am so crazy that I have even tried holding conversations with the invisible persecutors, reasoning with them, arguing that they could never possibly reveal their findings, as they would reveal themselves in the process. These conversations have lasted for hours at a stretch. I am also constantly worried about people talking about me behind my back, and am hypersensitive towards any sort of slight or insult. I hold grudges for years, and cannot trust anyone. I feel like I'm losing control - every day I find it harder to hold it together, to stop myself from showing how I feel inside and betraying my innermost secrets. What is wrong with me? Why am i such a paranoid freak? Will it ever stop?Your definately not a paranoid freak.Its common for people to be sensitive to any insults etc but if you really actually believe that people are monitoring you and have bugged your house etc than that can be a sign of schizophrenia and you should go with your parents to a doctor or psychiatrist that your comfortable with and talk about your symptoms,medication etc-but you also have a high level of insight into your condition which is unusual for schizophrenia so maybe there is something else that is causing these symptoms possibly
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • September 8, 2007
    • 07:07 PM
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  • The other comment is absoltutely correct that you have insight into your struggles, which is unusual in people with psychotic disorders. What you describe could also fall under several other disorders such as paranoid personality disorder or delusional disorder. The most important thing for you to do is to share your symptoms with your parents and seek help from a mental health professional. I would start with a psychiatrist so that you can be evaluated for whether medication might be an option for you and then go to a psychologist who can do long term counseling with you in order to help relieve your symptoms. There is hope and help but you must tell your parents what's happening and seek help. Best wishes!
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • September 9, 2007
    • 01:05 AM
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  • Dear Ant...many people are finding help with NAET/Bioset therapy. I am learning that being "mentally sick" is an extension of being physically ill as well. What are some of your "physical" symptoms? We all have some.It doesn't matter what the doctor "calls" your disease...what is important is treating it.go to www.naet.com find the map...click on your state. Find a practicioner and ask your parents to take you. It is the only thing that will help.Western docs will send you to the psychiatrist and they will give you pills to "mask" your symptoms. NAET/Bioset fixes the problem at the root...not at the end of a branch...There are a lot of people having mental issues that have been helped with this treatment. I know because I am one of those people.Best of luck, kid...mommy cat:)
    mommy cat 1654 Replies
    • September 9, 2007
    • 10:52 PM
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