i am not crazy. I am not schitzophrenic (sp?), at least i don't think so... but i do need help ! for the past 5 years or so i have had a "somebody" with me. He communicates with me by heating me up, like a hot flash, but different. He can only answer yes or no q's in this manner. I am a female, btw, and i know this is a male b/c i sort of heard his name- Michael. Like in the front of my head but not like hearing voices. There is a lot to this story but the q's involve this :
I hold anything on a string, anything that dangles, and it moves of its own accord, swaying to and fro and in circles. In the beginning this was a way to communicate w/ Michael, but then it wouldn't be him, it would be someone else,( i can tell b/c whatever i was holding would stop, wiggle, and turn in the opposite direction) who, through questioning outloud AND silently , said they were demons, When they are "on the pendulum" (for lack of better term) i feel sick, begin to shake like tremors, and so of course I drop it. There is nothing in everyday life i can pick up without this happening - keychain, necklaces... anything that could possibly dangle doesn't just hang there - it MOVES. I have made extreme conscious effort to NOT move my arm or hand in any way to see if i was somehow causing this. I'm NOT. These ordinary objects spin and move sometimes so fast i can barely hang on to them ! I would really like to show this to someone, but WHO ?
At night, and sometimes during the day, even when driving, I can feel someone inside of me. My stomach swells up as if they are trying to push their way out. I feel as if i'm being molested, to the point of actually being held down on the bed, couch, chair, whatever, and feeling like i am having sex. I can feel someone "there" as if there really is a man with me, to the point of orgasm. Sometimes it's like, well, it feels good, ya know, but scary, but sometimes it becomes like torture and like it is trying to rip me in half and push their way out through my stomach- it swells up so big i look like i am 9 months pregnant ! I don't know HOW to tell my med. dr. about such a thing !
AND for the past 11 months I've been having seizure like episodes, which can't be explained by medical tests. I have an awful feeling i am being attacked (by demons?). Waiting for EEG results now...have 2 types of seizures, so may be medical AND mental...or supernatural ????
I am really scared . really confused.
BTW...Michael tells me HE is an Angel.
Are they fighting for my soul ? My body ?
What is going ON ????? Am I CRAZY ??? :confused: