I began having trouble with school when I entered the fourth grade, I failed the fourth grade the first time and had to repeat the fourth grade and failed again and was passed because of my age. The fifth grade I was close to failing and barely passed on to the sixth grade and failed and was passed on to the seventh grade because of my age. I dropped out of the seventh grade after about a month or two and entered a homeschooling program in which they sent me my schoolwork and answer sheets as well as my tests and answer sheets. I was able to gain full control of the task of completing my homeschooling schoolwork and tests and then “checking” my answers.
So needless-to-say I cheated my way through all of that because my mother is a R.N. and had to work a lot of the time because she was raising three sons on her own. I then returned to public school in the ninth grade, I believe I was actually supposed to be in the tenth grade but I had to take a test to return to public school and only tested out at a ninth grade level. I was only there for about a semester and then I dropped out and had to wait until I turned age seventeen because I would have had to take classes in order to take it before then. I tried that and was not able to pay attention and concentrate on my class work enough and listen to the teacher.
I was just never able to concentrate and pay attention to my teacher, I was always getting into trouble in and out of school. I have now attended five different colleges because I could not keep my grades up and losing my financial aid as well as the changing of my major of study. I have been to college a total of eight to ten semesters and only have somewhere around twenty-five credit hours. I have also changed my major of study in school around six to seven times, I have went from general studies to computer science to psychology, to getting my pilot’s license, then to nursing, and back to computer science, then to mathematics, and then going to information technology. I have thought about going into several different branches of the military.
I have also thought about joining the Peace Corps and trying to find a job in which I can travel. I am now about to turn age twenty-seven in August and I still cannot find out what I want to do with my life, it seems to change on practically a daily basis. I have also had a problem with drug and alcohol abuse starting at age fourteen into my adult years. I have stopped my drinking but now that I am not drinking it seems that I am never able to fall asleep and get a good night’s rest.
I was diagnosed with Bipolar Mood Disorder when I was around twenty years of age but I started taking depression medication at the age of eighteen. I have taken a number of medications for depression, bipolar disorder, and anxiety. But I do not believe I actually have bipolar disorder because I am always depressed but my thoughts are always racing. My head seems to jump from one thing to another all of the time. I am actually believing that I actually have just been medicating the symptoms and not the actual root cause. I honestly believe after all of the reading and researching I have been doing that I am a depressed person with ADHD or possibly I do have bipolar disorder and ADHD.
So what do you think?