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is this normal

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • December 1, 2007
  • 07:22 AM

for a long time now, i have contemplated suicide. i have always been the fly on the wall in the room full of people and am just tired of being tired. my question is this. when does suicide go from taking your own life to just creating your own non existence. i am socially inadequate when it comes to being around the public, many people who i know are gone and truly will not be affected by what i do or don't do. But why is the idea of nonexistence so intoxicating. i moved from a town of about 30,000 to a town of over two million people. i am not a normal person, i do not enjoy the public scene because of all the crazy stupidity that is out there with the younger Gen. to me, nonexistence isn't so much as a cop out but a form of release. I truly do not believe counseling will help out and pill popping will definitely complicate things. But being alone, and abnormal from others in society, watching them have something i can never achieve, gets tiring. and i am tired, of being tired.

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  • No, it's not normal. I have had friends commit suicide the past few years and would think "If only they would have packed up, changed locations and start again"...that would have been an easier solution than the final solution. Problem is, you can't change your mind once you do it. I do understand from a former spiritual teacher that people who commit suicide, still are in the same physical space etherically, and will still be in the exact situation, except on the other side...so it the choice will be, "Where do you want to work out the problems...here or there?"
    Monsterlove 2921 Replies
    • December 2, 2007
    • 09:01 PM
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