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I think my brain was permanently damaged by alcohol

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  • Posted By: dogninja
  • February 25, 2010
  • 09:26 PM

Hi,
I have a really strange problem and this is the first time ive ever posted about it.
I am 35 years old now.
I have been on nicotine (in one form or another) since 14 years old.
At the age of 25 i was an alcoholic for 1 year.

I would say i was an alcoholic because I could not function if I did not drink every day (my mind would go foggy and i would not feel right)

As soon as I lost my job I gave up the alcohol.

However Ive been left with a biochemical problem that I never had before and i noticed that this started during my alcoholic phase.

I get into a state where I just feel awful, really tense, I feel a lot of anger inside. In fact i feel like i am about to explode! Its really bad .
The problem is this happens to me several times a day. Its not related to how I think or my mental outlook on life, it just happens unpredictably.

How do i get into this state?
This is a bit tricky to explain, it involves nicotine.
Now before i was an alcoholic if i needed nicotine i would just take a nicorette chewing gum and all would be solved.
In abstract say that my body needed 30 units of nicotine (a unit could be anything, it doesnt matter for this example) then i would be able to take
any amount between 30 - 100 units and still feel fine.

However since being an alcoholic things have changed. going back to the abstract example, again say my body needed 30 units - it now happens that i need to get pretty close to 30 units, say 30, 31 , 32 or 33 would be ok but any more than that and i feel awful as i explained above.

Now its impossible to be so precise as to get exactly the right amount of nicotine which is why i most always end up feeling ill.
If I get too much nicotine it makes me feel ill as i described above.
If i dont get enough then i feel depressed anyway

You might say cant i just give up nicotine? NO sorry and i did go cold turkey for 2 years but I just became totally depressed and never felt better.

Most people who smoke just dont have this problem, they can just obtain
a certain amount of nicotine per day and it doesnt have to be too precise.

So i think that the alcohol broke something in my brain and now im left with strange problems that make it very hard for me to function.

Does anyone know what i am talking about? can anyone help?


Thanks!
Dogninja

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  • Hi,I have a really strange problem and this is the first time ive ever posted about it.I am 35 years old now.I have been on nicotine (in one form or another) since 14 years old.At the age of 25 i was an alcoholic for 1 year. I would say i was an alcoholic because I could not function if I did not drink every day (my mind would go foggy and i would not feel right) As soon as I lost my job I gave up the alcohol. However Ive been left with a biochemical problem that I never had before and i noticed that this started during my alcoholic phase. I get into a state where I just feel awful, really tense, I feel a lot of anger inside. In fact i feel like i am about to explode! Its really bad .The problem is this happens to me several times a day. Its not related to how I think or my mental outlook on life, it just happens unpredictably. How do i get into this state?This is a bit tricky to explain, it involves nicotine.Now before i was an alcoholic if i needed nicotine i would just take a nicorette chewing gum and all would be solved.In abstract say that my body needed 30 units of nicotine (a unit could be anything, it doesnt matter for this example) then i would be able to takeany amount between 30 - 100 units and still feel fine. However since being an alcoholic things have changed. going back to the abstract example, again say my body needed 30 units - it now happens that i need to get pretty close to 30 units, say 30, 31 , 32 or 33 would be ok but any more than that and i feel awful as i explained above. Now its impossible to be so precise as to get exactly the right amount of nicotine which is why i most always end up feeling ill.If I get too much nicotine it makes me feel ill as i described above.If i dont get enough then i feel depressed anyway You might say cant i just give up nicotine? NO sorry and i did go cold turkey for 2 years but I just became totally depressed and never felt better. Most people who smoke just dont have this problem, they can just obtaina certain amount of nicotine per day and it doesnt have to be too precise. So i think that the alcohol broke something in my brain and now im left with strange problems that make it very hard for me to function. Does anyone know what i am talking about? can anyone help? Thanks!Dogninja It could very possibly be active b12 deficiencies. Read the first link first and them over to the second link to discuss it.http://forums.wrongdiagnosis.com/sho...517#post219517http://forums.wrongdiagnosis.com/sho...519#post219519
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  • It could very possibly be active b12 deficiencies. Read the first link first and them over to the second link to discuss it. http://forums.wrongdiagnosis.com/sho...517#post219517 http://forums.wrongdiagnosis.com/sho...519#post219519 Hi, Thanks very much for the reply. Yes vit b12 does seem to be something to do with it. I find now if i take b12 i need less nicotine which seems good as it is more normal. When i avoid b12 i need to take loads of nicotine per day which is just weird. I have been a vegetarian for 20 years (ish) and maybe my diet isnt that good. Looking back there may have been times when my diet was lacking b12 apart from milk in coffee. Taking b12 seems to normalise my nicotine requirement but i found that when taking b12 either by drinking lots of low fat milk or by taking supps that i feel sort of strange, jumpy, anxiety and dont feel like laughing. However if I avoid b12, after a while i also feel bad. I seem to feel best when i eat a source of b12 the day before yesterdaybut then no b12 yesterday and no b12 today.Initially b12 seems to make me feel bad but then after a while i feel better. So thanks for posting, i think my main question now is:B12 seems to cure one aspect of my problem (strange nicotine stuff)but taking b12 makes me feel jumpy, anxious, etc. Can i get the benefitof b12 without feeling all strange, etc?
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  • Hi, Thanks very much for the reply. Yes vit b12 does seem to be something to do with it. I find now if i take b12 i need less nicotine which seems good as it is more normal. When i avoid b12 i need to take loads of nicotine per day which is just weird. I have been a vegetarian for 20 years (ish) and maybe my diet isnt that good. Looking back there may have been times when my diet was lacking b12 apart from milk in coffee. Taking b12 seems to normalise my nicotine requirement but i found that when taking b12 either by drinking lots of low fat milk or by taking supps that i feel sort of strange, jumpy, anxiety and dont feel like laughing. However if I avoid b12, after a while i also feel bad. I seem to feel best when i eat a source of b12 the day before yesterdaybut then no b12 yesterday and no b12 today.Initially b12 seems to make me feel bad but then after a while i feel better. So thanks for posting, i think my main question now is: B12 seems to cure one aspect of my problem (strange nicotine stuff)but taking b12 makes me feel jumpy, anxious, etc. Can i get the benefitof b12 without feeling all strange, etc? Hi dogninja, B12 seems to cure one aspect of my problem (strange nicotine stuff) but taking b12 makes me feel jumpy, anxious, etc. Can i get the benefit of b12 without feeling all strange, etc It makes you feel strange and jumpy because you have been running on empty so long you don't know what healthy and enough b12 feels like. You will go though a lot of startup effects and that is entirely normal. There is no way back to health without changing. Change is what you feel and it often doesn't feel good. Come on over to the second thread I posted. Kevin is a vegatarian and I used to be. We have a lot of experience in this. Good luck.
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