If you have seen my other post "ready to end my life" then you will know that I have been in severe pain and actuallly was in the hospital this week for 5 days.
The doc says I definately have fibromyalgia and almost confirmed Rhuematoid Arthritis. He gave me Norotriptolin for the Fibro and also some ambien to help me sleep.
So I took the pills together last night and woke up this morning with a used condom wrapper beside me.
I remember I had been chatting online with a good friend, a guy who has been trying to bed me for over a year and I never have given in but always have thought about it.
Well, all I remember is chatting with him online last night and talking to him on the phone... though the phone conversation is nothing I remember much about.
I had this awesome dream that he came over and I had these sexy black jammies on and I ran in to put makeup on. I cuddled with him and we had awesome sex lol and I remember thinking "oh my god, what a dream, I SO need to sleep with him in real life".
Well I woke up this morning with a strange feeling and when I went into the bathroom I saw all this smudged black eyeliner around my eyes. I thought it was strange because I took all my makeup off before bed. Then I noticed the phone was in the bathroom instead of beside my computer and I got this sinking feeling deep down inside and when I went and looked, my bed was all rumpled and there was a condom wrapper beside it. Then I realized, I HAD SEX WITH THE GUY , IT WAS NOT A DREAM! I called him hysterically crying and he was very upset. He said he called me and I told him I took ambien and I was telling him to come over and see me and that I was singing on the phone and what not.
He came over, he tried to convince me I had turned him down for the last year and that I didnt really want to do it and then when I started crying and accusing him of not liking me, we did it.
I have tried all day long to remember it and only get vague moments that I can SWEAR were only a dream... but it happened.
I feel so very humiliated and kind of slutty. How can I have had sex with someone and not remember it... especially someone who has been trying to get me for a year and not suceeded... how could I have called him and told him to come over? Why dont I remember any of it???
Has anyone else had this experiance with Ambien? I cant stop crying...