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Help, I think I might be insane

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  • Posted By: cwish001
  • June 21, 2009
  • 08:54 AM

This is going to be really hard for me to relate I have never told anybody about this but things seem to be getting worse. I don't live in this world most of the time. I create other worlds in my mind and spend most of my time in them. I have lot of crazy experiences and have been in the Navy and now in school nearing graduation. I am a honors student in Business with a near 4.0 GPA but I just can't stand living in this world. I am obsessed with starting a business, and one of my world is my success world where I live the business ideas I have and am very successful. I have another world that I live in, in which I am part of a military commander from another galaxy toward the end of the universe doing a mission on this planet. That world is more toward entertainment while the other one is a staging and forward think world. In both worlds I am very savvy, handsome, popular, successful, and a great speaker and communicator. In this world I am ridiculously shy, shudder, have few friends. I get the worlds confused and I think I have same traits I have in the other worlds and am quickly disappointed when reality sets in. In order to travel to the other worlds I have to walk or do some type of moving activity. I walk or hike trails constantly, probably more than 15 miles daily. I am not here when I am walking but completely in other worlds. One problem is that I walk some much I am walking at all hours even 2,3,4 AM. People, mostly drunk people, have been harassing me while I am on my walks and have thrown sodas, beer, whatever at me and have taken the time to yell at me and call me names like "Crazy". I hate this some much, I am not walking in the middle of the street but on campus, on sidewalks, or on the curb I am not harming anyone. The bad thing is I have created a new world in which I carry around a gun with a silencer and when ever somebody comes had harasses me I open up fire on them and kill them all. It is the right thing to do, people should yell at strangers. In this world I see myself as a Robin Hood of sorts. These worlds are very vivid and very real when I am in them. The scifi one is for entertainment but the Business one is what I use for actual planning and take actions based on events in that world. I have been dx with Bipolar and I often feel that things are working against me and that everyone is laughing or talking about me. I don't know if there is more than bipolar going on and if I am going to eventually completely leave this world behind or even how dangerous I am to other people. I really fear sometimes that I might end up as a serial killer. I am afraid to tell the therapist or Dr. because I have alot going on in school with a upcomming graduation, opening a franchise, ect and I am afraid I will need to be locked up. I just want to know if this is common and benign or if this is a serious problem.

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  • Im sorry that you are feeling this way. You need to see a doctor, whether your GP or a psychiatrist.
    sophiaXIV 7 Replies Flag this Response
  • Sounds similar like me in some ways. But I don't know if I am Bipolar or not, but I am definitely an Aspie. I should see a psychiatrist to ask her questions about it, and I advise you to do the same. Ask your doctor about your problems and how could you help yourself things to get better.Wish you luck!
    Anasthasia 22 Replies Flag this Response
  • Sounds similar to what I had.... get to the doctor quick. Its incredible what modern medicine can do for you nowadays. I went crazy for approx. 10 years and did alot of weights and running. Had similar thing as you plus some far out manic laughter. Luckily the sedatives kicked in and I now feel as right as rain and stress levels are seriously reduced.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies Flag this Response
  • I read your post and I think I have the same thing or something like it. I would like to see a doctor about it but I don't want any privileges I've earned to be taken away, like driving, school, and work. I also don't have very much money do see a special doctor. would a regular doctor be able to help?
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 21, 2010
    • 07:11 AM
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  • Im sorry you are going through this but you should know: i've done some research on bipolar disorder for a loved one suffering from the disease, and understand the symtoms of the disease. These worlds you've created may be caused by something greater than your emotions, and caused by a serious mental disorder known as Schizophrenia . Im sure you've heard of it but if not i highly recommend that you research the disease and compare your situation. you can find it on this site at http://www.wrongdiagnosis.com/s/schizophrenia/intro.htm be aware that this is a disease that thousands of people are suffering from right now, you are not alone and there is a solution out there waiting for you. i also want you to be aware that a savior is waiting. ***********t our lord and father can save you from your pain. pick up any bible and open it to James Chapter 5, verses 14-15. also Matthew Chapter 9 verse 2. ****s heals the faithful both in this physical world on earth. He will heal your condition and make you well again. And also in your afterlife. Eventually we will all pass away in this world and you need to know; this world can provide prosperity and joy, but also sickness and pain. There IS a better place for us when we leave this earth, and in it there is no pain, confusion, depression, resentment, or guilt. But there is also a place where all of that exists, and far worse. i pray you find to ****s and through him you become well, and i pray you find the answers you are looking for. Ramon of NM, USA This is going to be really hard for me to relate I have never told anybody about this but things seem to be getting worse. I don't live in this world most of the time. I create other worlds in my mind and spend most of my time in them. I have lot of crazy experiences and have been in the Navy and now in school nearing graduation. I am a honors student in Business with a near 4.0 GPA but I just can't stand living in this world. I am obsessed with starting a business, and one of my world is my success world where I live the business ideas I have and am very successful. I have another world that I live in, in which I am part of a military commander from another galaxy toward the end of the universe doing a mission on this planet. That world is more toward entertainment while the other one is a staging and forward think world. In both worlds I am very savvy, handsome, popular, successful, and a great speaker and communicator. In this world I am ridiculously shy, shudder, have few friends. I get the worlds confused and I think I have same traits I have in the other worlds and am quickly disappointed when reality sets in. In order to travel to the other worlds I have to walk or do some type of moving activity. I walk or hike trails constantly, probably more than 15 miles daily. I am not here when I am walking but completely in other worlds. One problem is that I walk some much I am walking at all hours even 2,3,4 AM. People, mostly drunk people, have been harassing me while I am on my walks and have thrown sodas, beer, whatever at me and have taken the time to yell at me and call me names like "Crazy". I hate this some much, I am not walking in the middle of the street but on campus, on sidewalks, or on the curb I am not harming anyone. The bad thing is I have created a new world in which I carry around a gun with a silencer and when ever somebody comes had harasses me I open up fire on them and kill them all. It is the right thing to do, people should yell at strangers. In this world I see myself as a Robin Hood of sorts. These worlds are very vivid and very real when I am in them. The scifi one is for entertainment but the Business one is what I use for actual planning and take actions based on events in that world. I have been dx with Bipolar and I often feel that things are working against me and that everyone is laughing or talking about me. I don't know if there is more than bipolar going on and if I am going to eventually completely leave this world behind or even how dangerous I am to other people. I really fear sometimes that I might end up as a serial killer. I am afraid to tell the therapist or Dr. because I have alot going on in school with a upcomming graduation, opening a franchise, ect and I am afraid I will need to be locked up. I just want to know if this is common and benign or if this is a serious problem.
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  • Sounds pretty normal to me.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • December 6, 2010
    • 07:31 AM
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