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Depression is the pits

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • January 6, 2008
  • 08:55 PM

I am 64 years old, recently retired from education. I should be so satisfied with all my blessings, however, I am alone and constantly beating myself up. I have had a history of depression since high school. My life is a success story according to everyone but me. I feel absolutely miserable most of the time. I think I would gripe if I got hung with a new rope. My doctor is old fashion and tells me to take over the counter St. John's Wart. I feel embarrassed telling him that I feel very lonely, inadequate, my life is a failure and I can't enjoy any of the things I used to. I live in a very remote area and there is no mental health available here. Nearest is about 3 hours away. I may just be trying to adjust to retirement after 32 years in education, however, I just feel sad all the time and I am my own worst enemy. I have been depressed off and on most of my life and I think I inherited it. I just do not know how to combat the worthless feeling I have about myself. I just stay at home by myself and that makes it worse. I try to play golf when I can and fish when I can, but that even does not interest me any more. Sometimes I think I would love to meet a nice lady to spend some time with but will not make the effort to get out. Maybe someone out there has had similiar feelings and have had success getting better. I would love to hear from you if you don't mind.

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  • Go to www.mercola.com and search for the EFT manual.EFT = Emotional Freedom Technique. About 28 pages, many pictures to show you what to do and how to do it. You could also access www.emofree.com (EFT home) and possibly access some practitioners that can do it over the phone with you. It can change your automatic reactions to situations that keep you depressed.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • January 6, 2008
    • 09:00 PM
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  • yea i got bi-polar and my depression slumps on me like a half jackrabbitbut man, you gotta just push all that negative **** way the far **** back. if your lonely and despressed, fix the lonly. go look for where they sell puppies, get a rotti or whatever you want. Dog is mans best friend. I know it will cuz a somewhat similar story of my friends great aunt (is that how you would say it), her husband had passed and it would be the first time in a long, long, time she would be living alone. So she got herself a kitty, and now shes no longer alone. situations like this are when animals can give the love,comfort to people who need it,animals who dont give a **** what u did or done well only thing a dog gvies a **** about is food. But hey dogs need food, to do that you gotta go to supermarket, and there must be some woman who smiles, then the next your waking up in 8 in the morning, cuz your dog is gettin big now, so down the street walkin your dog, nothing but positive feelings, you see that woman from supermarket, she likes your dog, apparantly so much that once you guys get back from dinner, theres the dog wondering where his family went, but theyre back....ya kno i was depressed cuz bi-polar bull**** likes to act up whenever she feels like, and didnt want to do ****, had to re do my health insurance, so i sat around and watched tv wondering which is gettin canceled next, cuz they all suck now. then one morning i wasnt as tired when i woke up at 4, i got up, rubbed my eyes and very...very...faintly, there was a meow,sounded muffled by something. I hollard out to state i was awake, then tried to find the noise. then i look out the window, i see a cat staring out the window, meow. then i reminded myself of things to do.... when i finished my chores i went to go work out, picked up the dumbbell, then said ****in it and went back to bed. Meow, dammit shes back i said, but this time it came from the other window. i thought there might be ghosts out there jokin around, until i saw next to the trees, a little kitties who couldnt of been more than 2 weeks old, was in my backyard. as i was walkin over i hear that same smuffled meow, who managed toget herse;f impaled in the abdomen. Shocked, i looked up and seen wut she tried to do, she was probably goin to climb straight up to the birds and eat the birds. but kitties nose was a bit bloody id say. "I that was the kindest thing ive ever heard someone do.", said someone. I was happy, not for my little sticker/ badge, the neighbors scones, or that strange man across the street who just looked and then shut the blinds. But it wasnt those kitties and the mother who got impaled from a tree, who are looking for new homes and the mother will not be able to move her right arm anymore, but still withtout that momma theyd all of been dead. yea i actualy didnt do that, but this kid down the street did, he was heroe for a day, then everyone went back to their daily lives and i went on with my deppression, then one day i woke up from a mid-day-cat-nap and realized all the **** i wanted, wasnt there, i had to get there, I had to get up, and call my doctor. i thought that those anti-depressants were gonna be throwaway crap. Right now im almost 5/16ths of renovating the apartment complex with some of my buddies. Seems like that cat went everywhere, the one that kid rescued was now a apartment name, Almost. yea right now im not doin fan****fastic, but i persued some of the things ive been wantin to do but forgot about, got cheap health insurances to handle my ilnesses, pretty soon im gonna need a woman, once i can afford it, but id probly be out on the streets by now if i gave up and didnt make an effort to get the things i want, it wasnt like they were comin to me. plus this winters mad cold, the homeless must be freezing, they either got ****ed over, or made to many small decicisions that werent good and ended up sleepin in Dunkin Donuts.
    Sublime 3 Replies
    • January 20, 2008
    • 10:11 AM
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  • I am 64 years old, recently retired from education. I should be so satisfied with all my blessings, however, I am alone and constantly beating myself up. I have had a history of depression since high school. My life is a success story according to everyone but me. I feel absolutely miserable most of the time. I think I would gripe if I got hung with a new rope. My doctor is old fashion and tells me to take over the counter St. John's Wart. I feel embarrassed telling him that I feel very lonely, inadequate, my life is a failure and I can't enjoy any of the things I used to. I live in a very remote area and there is no mental health available here. Nearest is about 3 hours away. I may just be trying to adjust to retirement after 32 years in education, however, I just feel sad all the time and I am my own worst enemy. I have been depressed off and on most of my life and I think I inherited it. I just do not know how to combat the worthless feeling I have about myself. I just stay at home by myself and that makes it worse. I try to play golf when I can and fish when I can, but that even does not interest me any more. Sometimes I think I would love to meet a nice lady to spend some time with but will not make the effort to get out. Maybe someone out there has had similiar feelings and have had success getting better. I would love to hear from you if you don't mind.It is a sad deal to do it on your own but you don't have to! There are many resources available to you, such as the internet for starters. I also have a phone # for you. 800-784-2433 and http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/default.htm.Even when people tell you to push it away and start thinking of something else, it is easier said then done. this is a good place to because you are talking about it instead of holding it in. Since you are retired you have the freedom of adventuring out to a new place to live or even traviling even budget allows it. You really need to see a professional though, other than the one who says take st.johns wart because obviously it is not helping and you might need a real antidepressant. I'm so sry for what you are going thru but let me tell you by reading your story, you actually are helping me and many others, cause we know were not alone. Don't give up the fight! Take care and let me know how things go!
    cbalcomgo 38 Replies
    • January 21, 2008
    • 03:12 PM
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