On and off for the past month or so, I've been getting the same thing every few weeks it seems.
It starts with indigestion (or what feels like it), aches, burning sensation throughout my body, pain in one of both of my arms. Sometimes it feels as if my heart is racing, and usually it's worse when I'm lying down. Sometimes I can't even get to sleep.
I have seen the doctor several times.
First he thought it was one of the stomach bugs going around...though he did check my pulse.
A few weeks later, I was in again, and sent for lower gastro-intestinal x-rays, with a follow-up. My doctor told me he'd contact me if there was anything to worry about in the reports. I never heard from him, so I'm guessing it there wasn't.
Last Sunday, after lunch, I was feeling really sweaty, and felt as if I had to pass a stool, to use the medical term, but just couldn't. I asked my dad if my pulse was really fast. He thought it was, so I made him take me to emergency. I was there for atleast two hours...they tested my pulse, blood pressure, even tested for urinary infection. Nothing. They seem to think it's anxiety related.
To be honest, I am experiencing anxiety. I've moved out on my own.
My boss just changed the pay system...and it's going to take a long time to get used to.
I am not a social creature, so I've never been at ease with large groups of people, but it's never been this bad. Being around my ex-girlfriend doesn't help either, but it's hard not to see her, since she's my boss's daughter. Thankfully I don't see her all that often.
And there's these recurring symptoms, and a lack of answers. Sometimes, it's quite frightening, because I don't know what's happening.
Could it be anxiety and stress? Some times I wonder if it's my last moments on earth.
As it stands, I have another doctor's appointment on the 3rd. I will try to get him to refer me for mental health counseling. It did help the last time I really had to deal with anxiety and depression.
I just hope something works and makes this go away, because as I said before, I'm getting scared.
I have noticed this is worse just before I'm about to do something, or just before getting in the door at work. While I'm working or doing something, it's manageable, but then afterwards it seems to come back.