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I Am Bipolar

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • February 9, 2007
  • 01:37 AM

First let me start off by etting you know that I am here typing for my friend. She has been on here for a week and has been looking to read other peoples life stories to see what people have gone through. Her story is a little different in the misdiagnosed area as she felt she was bipolar for a long time and could not seem to convince people that she was. This mornig she had completed her 24 th ECT treatment. This evening, she feels very ready to tell her story as some people believe that she is a terrible person in this forum because she gave 1 post with our (her & I) opinion trying to seek a simple conversation about one fighting to not be Bipolar and here she is, had to fight to prove she is Biploar. Here it goes, I appoligize for typing errors in advance as I am not as fast as she is at talking. Thanks in advance for reading this.

I am in my middle 30's. As a young girl I withstood sexual abuse from a relative. Mental abuse fom my fathr and phsycical abuse from an 18 yr old boy as he raped me when i was 13. In a period of a few years, my grandparents, mother, brothre and baby died. I was in my middle 20's then. And my baby was a misscarriage but I was 18 weeks pregnant. I drank and took pills as i could not get a handle on life. I nevr told anyone about the abuse as a little girl as i was always embarrased and did not want to look like a dirty girl. i held this all in until i decided to go to get help form my drinking problem. i was so very depressed. i felt so many times like killing myself. i honestly just felt like dying as i could not see one positive thing around me. well, my husband and daughter were there but in all the gloom they didn't seem too bright to me at the time. boy does that sound horrible. sorry. i have a college education and work in / or had worked in the accounting field. when i went to the hospital for help after a year of straight drinking, i was so depressed. i really got to sit and evaluate my life and myself. up to this point i guess i should tell you how i was taking every little thing out on everyone i loved. my mood would change from happy to mean in a second flat. i had a lot of anger and threw things if i did not go my way. if someone cut me off in traffic, i would want to run them down. i would stay up for days at a time and there were weekends where i would start cleaning as soon as i got home rfrom work on friday and would not stop until sunday night. at first i thought i was just trying to oocupy my brain , to take my mind of of all the horrible things that haunted me. as i accumulated all these symptoms after time and when i got to the hospital, Bipolar was mentioned to me. Thats it, I thought. That has to be me. That is what i have. I left hosp. and took a short leave from work so that i could attend an intensive outpatient program. this is where i started therapy and saw my 1dt psychiatrist. I told some of my childhood horror stories for the 1st time in myy life to people i did not even know. going to try and make this shorter. Drs put me on some anti depressents and sent me on my way. i looked more and more into the bipolar diagnosis and was sure that was me. after 2 weeks of therapy my depression wasn't lifting and the drs thought it would be best for me to go into psych ward. i took the rest of my vacation time at work. at this point was the time i really started to get serious about suicide. drs assured me that i needed some time away from my job and really need some serious therapy. i was told that there is help out there for me. that i could apply for disability and have good reason to get it. "It takes a little while" but they also informed me that help you with pay and insurance. When it came time to fill out the paper work, they called me depressed!!!!! I did not qualify for the SS! I asked what happened to the bipolar/ I thought that is what i had? They said no, we never said that. You do not seem to be that we just think you are depressed. Bull crap. I by then lost my job, soon lost my house, had to file for bankruptcy and gave up my car. after seeing 3 more drs one finally said bipolar. then the state denied me again. sent me to 2 more of "their" drs where i had to go through all of these long extensive psychological tests. Finally, i was diagnosed bipolar and got the Social Security. I had to fight and PROVE that i had this illness even though all of these medical people where there to witness my actions and only came to the "depressed" conclusion. Oh and I also heard PTSS post traumatic stress syndrome. So i lost everything i worked for . wnet through years and so many medications. the side effects sometimes caused the depression to become worse. weight gain, headaches, trembles, seizures etc. Now I am taking 12 meds a day. I had my 24th ECT treatment today. These treatments have left me feeling very dumb. My memory is all messed up and i never know what direction i am heading in. i get confused really easily. it is a shame, that had they took me seriously, as only I know myself the best. And had diagnosed me bipolar at first with their drs too, I may have not lost what my husband and i took 10 years to build up. So I hope this helps. If you feel that you are sick, DEMAND treatment or get that next opinion until you agree with the doctor. And do it quickly as the state's system seems to take forever. Now I am still not working, I go to therapy once a week i am sorta heading in the direction of not ever wanting to leave my house. But one thing I am sure of is, for my daughters sake, I am so glad I never succeeded at killing myself! Thanks for listening.

PS My friend is a really dear person. She is not a stalker and I assure you, I do most of her typing as she has broken her ar 2 weeks ago. I do not even know what that stagmatic word is or means. I am with her everyday and have read everything with her for the last week since we started. We come on here looking for others like her. Hoping there is someone out there who understands. It is very frustrating for her to try and explain her anger about this misdiagnsosi to her doctors as they all stick together and ignore her anyway. Sorry, but my friend has been dealt the crappiest hand of cards in life.

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  • I will start off with a suggestion. Please refrain from "pretending" to be a friend of the "bipolar who gets on here & fights"...you BOTH say you have the EXACT same medical histories & BOTH of you are bipolar & BOTH of you had "fight to convince people you were", etc. BOTH your stories are the SAME.Please STOP these attempts at "fooling people" into thinking that you are two different people. We are more educaated than to fall for that.All you have to do is to BE HONEST & say you want help, rather than LYING about who you are & then attacking another user who said they were misdiagnosed.This continued behavior of your is immature & gets you NOWHERE.We all request that you STOP it.Bye.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 9, 2007
    • 02:24 AM
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  • oh, so you "type for her". well, the FACT still remains that she's gotten on here & repeatedly PICKED FIGHTS with me, saying among other things "that i'm in need of mental treatment because i'm mad about being misdiagnosed as bipolar"...yet, here she is "being mad about being misdiagnosed as bipolar". what's this double-standard here??--she can be "mad" but i cant?? thats DUMB & she should just deal with feelings of misdiagnosis & STOP reflecting it onto users like me!! however, for your information, i am NOT using the "dudbubbin1" account after this because i'm sick of her relentless "picking a fight attitude" everytime i post in the "misdiagnosis story area" & the subject is "misdiagnosis". she's made it QUITE CLEAR she *wont tolerate* future posts by me about this general subject, so i have to stop using this account. in fact, i'm going elsewhere to post, never again to return here, due to her INSISTING & HARASSING ME that i have "3 flaws in my personality which are obvious when she saw all my posts & could tell by the posts what the *hidden personality behind the poster* revealed (which is DUMB)". i will also say that in your last post on the 8th, you claimed twice that you seek out my posts because "i was looking for help but never got it"...do you really call HARASSING & STALKING SOMEONE "looking for help"??...then, you have been fooling yourself lady!!! you DO NOT "look for help" by harassing someone repeatedly for what they'vee posted & then stalking them on here!! you are a SICKO PSYCHO!! you may want to tell her that her 12 medications may have the side-effect of "impaired thinking" & "psychosis" so perhaps that explains WHY she's been repeatedly attacking me for no reason--that was behavior that was resembling a "thinking impairment". no offense, just letting you know. nice try, but no one falls for that phoney attempt you just made saying "all i did was post once, saying i was mad that to convince people i was bipolar". as if NO ONE SEES that in the post of 2-8-07 you did way MORE than say "only that" and you did it MORE THAN ONCE (referring to the posts of the 27th). therefore, no one buys you're attempts to LIE like this. p.s. knowing the situation as i do you probably WONT tell her what i said because if came from that "person" she has harassed. ok, go ahead & IGNORE GOOD ADVICE. this is now the END of "dudbubbin1" account. signing out.....
    dudbubbin1 37 Replies
    • February 9, 2007
    • 03:11 AM
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  • I have to agree. I have seen what's been going on here too. If anyone cares to, they can go back and look at this unregistered persons message dated 2-8-07. In it, they say they have not been stalking or fighting but have come "seeking help but never got it". I do not call it "seeking help" to NEVER ask for help from dudbubbin1 but instead to do this from start to finish, "You need help for your anger. You only get on here to complain that you were misdiagnosed with the bipolar illness & won't be quiet. You are offensive because of the way keep using the word bipolar." This is NOT seeking help. It's obvious to me that this was only complaining over & over again about those 3 things about dudbubbin1. Anyone who had kept track of the conversations dated 1-27-07 (message #119 in the archive) and 2-8-07 (message #130 in the archive) can plainly see that this was the case.So, I feel it's a fraud for this person whose unregistered to say, "I only came to your posts seeking help." when it's CLEAR they never did "ask for help". Unless of course this person, until today, had such a problem (like perhaps they have no courage to just ask) with actually saying the words "I want help & support from you" that instead they chose to lash-out angrily in every message to dudbubbin1 because it came from a deep psychological disturbance that they "think" lashing-out at someone angrily WAS ACTUALLY "asking for help", in which case I say that this is what needs treatment.Another point I have to make here is that for this person to complain about dudbubbin1 over & over without stopping (rather than just dropping the subject like an adult) IS in fact "fighting" with someone. It would've been different if this person had just stated their opinion ONCE, but they didn't. Instead, they said over & over & went on & on in message after message. That kind of thing is what I'd call "fighting" because it was not just "stating an opinion once & then letting go of it". Therefore it was argumentative, pushy, rude, overbearing, & was really only fighting.Speaking of this subject, it was sort of like "stalking dudbubbin1" because this person ADMITTED to "reading all their messages & then formulating opinions about dudbubbin1's intent & such". It's stalking in the sense that a stalker will also "follow you around from place to place to see what you're doing". It's very similar indeed. It makes me wonder why someone would get on the web & "follow someone around" like that & "making a note of 'There goes dudbubbin1 again saying that stuff'". Most users don't even recall what a particular user says or does from message to message, which is a clear piece of evidence to support the notion that dudbubbin1 was indeed "followed messge to message". So, it's no wonder that dudbubbin1 referred to this "following around" as being "stalked". It's been my experience on the web that I have never encountered this before because I was never "followed message to message" & I certainly would never think of "following other people around to see what they're up to each day". This kind of behavior also needs treatment.I do not blame dudbubbin1 for being tired of this "pursuit" & saying that they're never coming back here. I wouldn't either if this had happened to me.I'll end this message here. Good bye to you people.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 9, 2007
    • 01:42 PM
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  • Am I wrong or did this person we're referring to here also went on here both times "pretending to be someone else who just happens to agree that they also have followed dudbubbins posts around & agrees that dudbubbin has those 3 problems". Wasn't that really the same person there only pretending to be another user in agreement?What is the internet coming to when someone would be such a nut as to pretend to be 2 different people when it was actually only one?!I believe that pretending to be 2 people in agreement was a nutty attempt at "driving the point home" (and probably an attempt to make dudbubbin feel bad about it) that "See, I'm right about you! Someone else agrees with me!"What a nutty thing to do! WHO LETS THESE NUTS ON HERE?!?!?!YOU ARE SOME SORT OF NUT!
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 9, 2007
    • 02:08 PM
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  • Hello.Did you notice that you're not getting any replies here (and probably never will) for your request for support? I know why. I'ts because all these posts here saying that you're odd have scared away all people who would've replied! That's what happens & that's your karma! The same thing happened to the person you argued at three days ago when all your arguing scared away all their potential replies as well! That's what you get for being an argumentative person! :D Good luck on your arguing endeavors!
    Nowheresville 2 Replies
    • February 9, 2007
    • 03:23 PM
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  • Wait. I speculated as to why you would harass dudbubbin1 that way & I think I know what you're saying. You said in your last post of the 8th that "I came to you looking for help but gone none". Are you saying that you went to duds posts but dud was never leaving any details about what happened & just only said "I was misdiagnosed bipolar & so I'm mad"?? If this is it, then you're still crazy. You should've handled that in an adult fashion and just asked dud to get into details so you could see if it would help, but instead you got mad at the lack of details & went on a REVENGE CAMPAIGN against dudbubbin1. If you found duds posts to lack helpful information then you could've also chosen to not read them. Going on a vengeful warpath is lame! There is something wrong with you that you would revenge someone for a lack of details & for not being helpful! So what if this got you mad about dudbbbin1! Then just deal with your frustration better!
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 9, 2007
    • 08:58 PM
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  • I just realized another karma you have received here. You are having several people point out your faults like you kept pointing out dudbubbin1's faults. Karma I say, karma.:D
    Nowheresville 2 Replies
    • February 10, 2007
    • 00:47 AM
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  • I agree with all the above!Take care you fool person whose got a bipolar problem!...............................................................Again I sayI agree with all the above!Take care you fool person whose got a bipolar problem!
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 10, 2007
    • 04:44 AM
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  • I must also point out another fault of yours.As you told dudbubbin1, what are trying to do here? All you do in your posts is to whine & complain that you were misdiagnosed & that now you're upset by this. WHY do you abuse this website this way? Stay off here & leave it for sick people who need it!I will also point out that it's apparent that you're seeking "support". This is not a website with a "support group" on it. This is abusing the site as well, so stay off (as you told dudbubbin1).This board on "misdiagnosis stories" is obviously for sharing a "misdiagnosis story" (as dudbubbin1 did, but you said this was wrong!). You are NOT sharing a misdiagnosis story, but are giving a life-story & then seeking a "support group" for it. You said dudbubbin1 cant use this area to share a misdiagnosis story (even though thats what its for), so you CANT use it to "seek a support group".KNOCK IT OFF.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 10, 2007
    • 08:54 PM
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  • I'll make a correction to the last post.You DON'T feel it was a misdiagnosis! THEN WHAT THE SAM-HILL ARE DOING ON A MISDIAGNOSIS AREA??!!!! CANT YOU READ??!!!!BOY ARE YOU DUMBER THAN I THOUGHT!!!!This is for misdiagnosis, not "complaining about your life story"! At least dudbubbin1 had an actual "misdiagnosis story"!!! And you critized dudbubbin1 for not "sticking to the subject"!! "Misdiagnosis" IS the subject!!!!! Dudbubbin1 was "misdiagnosed"!!!! So, dudbubbin1 had a RIGHT to be here and it's YOU that doesn't!!!! But that's the truth of the matter!!ARE YOU ALSO BLIND & CAN'T READ??!! All boards are CLEAR about what they're for. Here, I'll refresh your short memory! One is for "misdiagnosis", one is for if you have "symptoms of a particular condition", one is for people who "can't find the right treatment for what they have", one is for "telling their medical story", one is for people who "can't a diagnosis so they ask for diagnosis help". IT'S CLEAR TO ANYONE THAT YOU FIT INTO *NONE* OF THESE BOARDS so it's YOU who should stay off here, not dudbubbin1!!!!!You claim to be college educated?? It's obvious it never included a course in HOW TO READ!!!KNOCK IT OFF.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 10, 2007
    • 09:15 PM
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  • I don't believe it. You just took the words right out of my mouth! It's a fact that this website has no where to just post your life story & say that you're upset by it!Maybe you are simply JEALOUS at dudbubbin1 for being misdiagnosed with a bipolar illness and here you are with a real bipolar illness and because you wished it were YOU who was misdiagnosed you got mad in flaming jealousy over this & that's why you wouldn't leave dudbubbin alone about it.Get over it! People out here have been misdiagnosed & stop being so jealous because you resent the fact that it wasn't you!!!!GROW UP!!No wonder you said "I picked the misdiagnosis section for a reason". It's because you're looking to prey on those who were misdiagnosed with the illness you have so you could BEAT UP ON THEM for it!! That's GROSS!!You are here to complain about being diagnosed with a bipolar condition and what you had to go through to get that diagnosis! So, do a google search on support groups for those who do have the illness of bipolar and STOP leaving trash posts at users and stop using the misdiagnosis area to say "It's NOT fair! You people were misdiagnosed but NOT me!! So, I'm upset by that!" Well pitty you (sarcasm)!What a HORRIBLE ABUSIVE person are!
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 10, 2007
    • 09:40 PM
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  • Speaking of "targeting dudbubbins posts", here's your quote from 2-7-07 where you said this------------------------------------------------Quote:Originally Posted by dudbubbin1 - obviously, you've never been the victim of any medical error that backfired, or you'd have some anger too. dont preach unless you've been there. so, no more.. Wow, You have blown everything way out of proportion. First, i have not read all of your posts. I am not a stalker and am not a sicko. I am simply very ill myself and always looking for help. I had been in the "misdiagnosed" forum for a reason. If you check, not too many people post about misdiagnosed on the Bipolar issue. So that led me to read your posts. Now does that make sense to you? --------------------------------------------------------There is your exact words so DON'T deny it! Truth is dudbubbins quote above that "you obviously were never the victim of a medical error & don't know how it feels" IS true! You admit to this in your post NOW when you explained that you WEREN'T the victim of any medical error! You say in your post NOW that you aren't the victim of a medical error!You CAN'T escape the TRUTH of what YOU'VE said here!!!!!SO PLEASE STOP BEING A BRUTE!! GO AWAY!!!
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 10, 2007
    • 10:06 PM
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