From what I was as a confident outgoing little sod to what I became after puberty at age ten, I have suffered depression all these past thirty years. Now the depression is recognised and I am treated for this, but what caused it, I was never any different except one thing. Puberty, my testicles did not grow and I am infertile. I always felt I was different, and knew it too. A time in the military proved that. One girlfriend, one wife, one marriage, all gone because of the depression and little interest in sex.
Childish my ex wife used to call me or child like in more ways than one. Tests I had, but no reasons to why the testes did not grow, I can accept infertility, but I am different. The parting shot from my ex wife on leaving was that no woman wants a man with small balls, something I felt to be true, silly I know, a man is not measured by how big his balls are, but all I want to be is the same as everyone else, to look normal.
I don't tackle this, the depression will remain, as confidence suffers now as it has always done.
Are there any options I could consider?