For most of my life I have had a very hard time with visual working memory. People said I have NVLD, but it seems more severe than that to me. This was in high school. I am now in college, but I feel like I am getting worse. I have a history of epilepsy as well. It supposedly went into remission in 1999, but recently I have had a diagnosis of tempoal lobe epilepsy. This was based on me having deja vu although now that I think about it I had sometimes heard voices. The auditory hallucinations have not occured and neither has the deja vu recently due to me taking trileptal, but after having seizures a few weeks ago I have had only the auditory hallucinations again. Some would whisper. There was another strange seizure expereince where when I would close my eyes images and video memories would come flying at me. This was only with my eyes closed. As for actual visual hallucinations nothing has really happened although I do remeber seeing some strange deformed hand when I was a kid. I do have paranoia of vampires even now in college. Yes I know they are not real, but there is still the paranoia. I used to have the paranoia of being watched, but not so much anymore. Even further the last couple of weeks I have been expereincing musical hallucination very frequently. It is very hard for me to perform basic tasks like washing the dishes or mowing the lawn. Actually trying hurts my brain, but for some reason I can still walk the dog. I have been given the diagnois of OCD as well, but think these issuaes are more due to my visual spatial difficulties. I also get a wierd feeling when trying to recall memories. It very to visualize anything or learn anything visual. I have pretty obvious social deficits and am close to incapable of learning body language conciously. Some people say I am bad at communicating and getting my thought on paper can be hard at time, but was remedies in high school by somehow getting me to start after that no problems. I also think my thoughts are disorganized especially in writing and people have made comments about my grammar.
What is wrong with me?