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What could this be? Should I see a doctor? Please help!

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • December 5, 2007
  • 00:01 AM

I really don't know what to do, I've never seen a professional although I have thought about it many times. I thought this all would go away but it never has and i'm desperate for someone to point me in the right direction.

I have terrible paranoia about pretty much everything. I was always paranoid as a kid but it's got worse since then. I get paranoid that my boyfriend is cheating, that i'm being watched or followed, that i've heard something or someone, that something is going to happen things like that. But it dictates the things I do, i'll remember people's faces in case they do something to me, i'll remember the number plates of dodgy looking cars. If I go out i'll be wary of people, even my own friends, I watch my drinks and my handbag like a hawk and take them with me everywhere even if i'm with people I can trust, I won't flag down black taxi's, when I get in an ordered taxi I remember the person's face and the car number , the list is endless. I'm constantly wary of people and suspicious of just about everything.

I get really angry over minor things and get violent. I lash out and throw things and cry and scream uncontrollably. It's getting progressively worse and i'm scared i'm going to hurt someone, this kind of thing seems to go on for longer before I calm down. I feel so stupid afterward and angry at myself for losing it that i've resorted to self harm on many occasions.

More recently I've started feeling anxious randomly for no apparant reason. Like a forboding feeling and really panicky. I was telling a person I work with how sometimes my heart beats funny, like it speeds up and feels like it's thudding against my chest and makes me feel dizzy. My breathing doesn't seem to change though like I'd been doing exercise or something, it's like someone has jumped out and scared you. She said this sort of thing had happened when she had a break down of some sort.

I don't know if all this is me being stupid but i'd really like to know. I'm sure your busy people but i'm desperate and scared about what I might do. I just need someone to point me in the right direction. Please help me, thanks for your time.

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  • Sounds like bipolar disorder.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • December 5, 2007
    • 01:04 AM
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  • I read your story and you sound like myself and my husband! I have been diagnosed with depression and my husband has been diagnosed with bipolar.To see a mental health worker is the best start for yourself since you need to get your self confidence built. But must also explain these episodes to a medical doctor so you can be properly diagnosed. I have been in your shoes, it is NOT fun feeling the way that you've been feeling. There is light at the end of the tunnel though, with proper councilling and medication. Before you know it, you WILL have your life back and be in control. My husband had paranoia that I would stray on him, which I would NEVER do, so I can understand how frusterating it can be for your significant other. When my husband and I are on our medication, we are too busy enjoying life than to worry about "what if's". Best of luck to you!
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • December 5, 2007
    • 04:45 PM
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  • Seeing a doctor wouldn't hurt. Maybe you just need someone to ask the right questions so you can talk everything out. If you can find a good therapist (and your insurance covers it!) then go for it. Maybe look up one who specializes in anxiety disorders or Post traumatic stress since anxiety and paranoia are symptoms.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • December 5, 2007
    • 04:48 PM
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  • As described, your symptoms don't fit the characteristics of bipolar disorder as other people have suggested. The paranoia described is not a usual symptom of bipolar disorder. The problem with many types of mental illness is that there tends to be more than one problem at a time. Unfortunately, many medical doctors aren't taught to distinguish between them and therefore their treatment plans are not adequate. To me, it sounds like you may be suffering with generalized anxiety disorder and obessesive complusive disorder, possibly another mental illness. I would suggest seeking the help of a psychologist, psychiatrist or other mental health professional that can give you a good diagnosis and then seek a medical doctor whom you trust who can partner with your mental health professional to develop a good plan for overcoming the problems that are plaguing you. This isn't something you have to live with and you can have a much better quality of life if you get the right people on your side.
    jennvan40 1 Replies
    • December 6, 2007
    • 05:45 PM
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  • You arecrazy :D if you don't see a professional. You seem desperately unhappy. Talk to someone. Your paranoia might be a form of OCD. And actually it's a good idea to keep an eye on your purse and drink and to be street smart. But not to the point of making yourself miserable. Your chemicals in you brain are just a little off and need re-adjusting. It might be temporary, or you might need to take meds for a long time. It's no big deal. Everyone needs a tune-up now and again.
    rad-skw 1605 Replies
    • December 13, 2007
    • 01:18 PM
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  • Well, I am going to suggest a possible vitamin/mineral deficiency, which is often a basis for many psycho/emotional disorders. Folic acid deficiency can cause paranoia, calcium/iron/magnesium/B vitamins can cause depression. Why not first try a good quality supplement before resorting to the many antidepressant/antianxiety/bipolar meds that are out there...it may help. Consider acupuncture and Oriental Medicine. These modalities treat the whole body. Your liver sounds out of balance. Acupuncture and Chinese herbal medicine may really make a difference. To me all those labels GAD, bipolar, etc...are just there so allopathic docs can prescribe meds. Pharmaceuticals may help some people, but often they just bring about a host of other horrible side effects, and many are addictive and have terrible withdrawal (discontinuation) symptoms if you stop them. I know many people will disagree with me, but I have treated many patients who were on drugs like celexa, effexor, lexipro, elevil...and most hated being on them. There are other ways to get the body back into balance. Acupuncture can really help. Best wishesDOM
    acuann 3080 Replies
    • December 13, 2007
    • 10:38 PM
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  • Dear "wench".Im very sorry that you are having this.I Also have something similar that i dont know what is causing it.I would also agree that it doesnt sound like bi-polar disorder.Bi-polar disorder involves episode/s of mania and you didnt mention having this.Apart from the heartbeat do you have any other physical symptoms that accompany the paranoia and anger?also does the anger and violence feel like something you cant control?I think you should definitely see a doctor and get an brain mri,pet scan and eeg as there are some tumours that can cause these symptoms as can also some forms of epilepsy.Also maybe get a hair analysis test to see if you have any abnormal levels of heavy metals:mercury etc.Apart from psychiatric illnesses there are also a lot of organic illnesses that can cause symptoms involving the brain like the vitamin deficiencies that were mentioned by acuann.God Bless You
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • December 20, 2007
    • 09:38 AM
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