(I apologize that this is a relatively long post, but I'm hoping that the more information I give, the more likely it is that someone will be able to reassure me that I haven't done irreversible damage to myself. I also recognize that I have made some very stupid, poor choices -- choices likely to have worsened my condition. I'd really appreciate help as opposed to judgment.)
I'm a 19 year-old female, and I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder at age 11. Since then, I've been on a number of different medications, some of which have helped me for a period of time. About 6 months ago, while at college, I stopped taking my Paxil (but continued taking my small dosage of Wellbutrin). I notified my psychiatrist of this via phone, but there was really nothing he could do, given that I was a few hundred miles away.
It may seem incredibly obvious that, after going off of an anti-depressant cold turkey, I would experience symptoms of severe depression. What I'm feeling, however, is different from any combination of depressive symptoms I've experienced previously. I have no trouble sleeping, suicidal thoughts, guilt, and for the most part, no sadness. I instead have mostly cognitive symptoms; I've become EXTREMELY, EXTREMELY detached, forgetful, and unable to concentrate or think properly. I almost feel as though NOTHING is going on in my head and that my mind is slowly deteriorating. I can't read and absorb information, follow simple directions, etc. These feelings are so foreign and intense that I've begun to fear the worst.
I was able to (just barely) finish up a difficult and miserable semester, and I'm now home. I'm seeing a psychiatrist and psychologist, both of whom think that I'm severely depressed, but can't explain the degree of detachment I'm feeling. I've started back on medication, and hopefully I'll see some changes soon, but I'm terrified that this is a neurological problem or that I've done irreversible emotional damage to myself. This may be highly irrational (especially given that my CAT scan showed no signs of structural damage), but another opinion would be helpful.
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