46 year old male, generally good health
undiagnosed, but have had closed head injuries
never had eeg, pet, nor ct scans
taking synthroid .125, omeprozale 20 mg, aspirin 325
chronic alcoholic (please don't jump to a conclusion there, please read the history)
recently stopped taking 1/2 pill generic 'unisom' nightly
no illicit drugs
formerly depression was treated with zoloft, then paxil, then effexor (had terrible cold turkey withdrawal) back on paxil as effexor was unavailable, then effexor daily with trazadone nightly. No depression meds for about two years.
no illicit drugs.
teen thru mid 20's history of mostly marijuana, some hallucinagens, some cocaine.
current daily consumption equivelant to 4-8oz 100% etoh by volume
no recent major variation in daily alcohol consumption
Last night, three times that I almost dropped off to sleep I actually quit breathing - I woke up bolt upright will a violent gasp of air. It happened a couple of more times where I was awake enough to notice I wasn't breathing and started breathing again.
I have not been sleeping well for a couple of weeks. It's like I'm afraid to sleep. 'Something' happens soon after I fall asleep and I don't know what it is (until last night?) and I wake up verbalizing something like oo ooo ooo oooo oooo in a sort of terror.
At least once, maybe twice in my life I've awakened to not know who I am or where I am if that makes any sense, and then it slowly dawned on me. Maybe five or six times since a child I have awakened disoriented and slowly got my bearings back to compass directions - kind of same feeling.
Over a dozen (?) times I've had like a jolt, or reaction to falling off a cliff just as I've dropped off to sleep.
I have experienced sleep paralysis a few times, but not for several years... maybe 20 (?) Where I was fully awake but could not move my body accompanied by a feeling of terror.
At times, as I'm about to sleep, I have had paranoias like visualising something horrible happening to my loved ones - car crash, etc. and was afraid of sleep.
Three things have helped me deal with it in the past. Leave the television on all night, drink myself to sleep, and most recently otc sleeping pills.
I stopped the sleeping pills a week or so ago thinking they might be causing my problem (not thinking of the history of it all until now) and was 'fine' for about a week until the last two nights. (Fine as in none of the things I've described) but I didn't fall asleep until after daylight most nights and only got a couple of hours of sleep each morning.
I don't recall my stress or anxiety level at the other times in my life that I have had these problems. Now am unemployed, possibly facing eviction with nowhere to go, relationship ended/is ending, and frustrated at my seeming inability to be productive or change my lot - only leaving the house briefly once a day to procure alcohol or food. I mention this only to illustrate my level of stress and anxiety.
Unrelated (?) physical symptoms just in case it matters.
Soon after beginning omeprazle my stools became quite loose and now, for about a year, very loose to diarhea consistency. (I've assumed it is from mixing w/alcohol)
Non ruptured hemmoroid with accompanying itch (occasionally excruciating itch)
chronic jock itch for about a year - clean, dry, apply creme at least 5/7 days of the week.
the last two contribute to not being able to go back to sleep after the 'terror' so I shower again, etc.
Distended abdomen (finger or hand pressure on liver is not tender) I have assumed this to be from the prilosec as well.
One molar with raw nerves (missing filling) all other molars missing.
Teeth clean and present. (I'm trying to think of anything becasue i don't know what to eliminate.
diet very poor in fresh fruits, vegs, whole grains for about three months. Live on country breakfast and meat and potatoes dinner for most part.. probably 1000-1500 calories daily
No weight loss in last year, gain of 30# over about 4 yrs
I can't think of anything else... oh one thing About ten or fifteen years ago I made some pot tea (wasn't tolerating smoking thc so tried one last time) and I mixed valerian root with it in a stainless steel pan. Left it on the counter, and when returned home a couple of days later it was fermented.. but they were very large bubbles.. anyway, I drank it and after it took affect I was delusional about a movie that was on, thinking it was a live program, and I felt like I had to manually breathe each breath and occasionally slam my chest to make my heart beat.. it truly seemed I had no autonomic cardiopulminary function - and I may not have, who knows what that witch's brew turned into.
Any help will be appreciated. It would be 'nice' if I just have epilepsy from the brain injuries, or something else that a medication can treat and leave me functional.
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