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Self medicated thru a long depression and want my life back

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • February 4, 2009
  • 08:03 PM

I'm a 50 yr old woman who was chronically depressed for 8 of the past 10 years. For 5 of those years I self medicated daily with alcohol. Fortunately, as the depression lifted I was able to stop abusing. Probably tried most anti-depressents without much success most likely due to the alcohol. I never had any rehab and have had little counseling over the years. Today, I have very little depression but have concluded I may never be totally free of it. I have an occasional glass of wine which is what my habits were before the depression. I am currently taking 150mg of bupropion twice a day and HRT's. Bottom line, I am a mere shadow of my old self. In particular I am unable to function well cognitively on any consistent basis. I have very poor recall, short memory span, can't maintain focus, easily overwhelmed, etc. I can say that I have improved greatly over the last 4 years but not enough to get, let alone maintain a job. Somedays are better than others which feeds my frustration on not being able to maintain any sort of consistancy. Many 80 year olds function better cognitively. I fear this is permanent and the direct result of the alcohol. To compound things, I'm sure hormones play a role but I would think the HRT's would help balance that. I can definately tell when it's hormones by the triggers I get emotionally. Otherwise, it's as if my mind is literally blank, like I'm day-dreaming, no depth. (This has taken nearly an hour to get this far) I process most everything very slowly and retain little. Sometimes caffeine really ehlps but again, it's temporary. In addition, once the alcohol stopped so did any actual dreaming. Maybe I still do but I am unaware of any. I am looking for anything I can do to get my life back. I am currently without health insurance and desperately need to go back to work. Could this be alcohol induced alzheimers? I would greatly appreciate ANY suggestions and/or comments.

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  • hello,HRT only helps with female issues. You could be low on thyroid or other hormones. Alcohol is very dehydrating, you may even be missing some vitamins and minerals. You might also have some kind of infection or virus, undetected, that can be causing the depression and the other cognative problems. Have you seen a neurologist or had an mri of the brain ? Please see a doctor, and have them run blood work, to check for vit & mineral loss, other hormones, infections & viruses.Can you do some exercizing, they can boost some other hormones/ brain chemicals. { Sorry, I can't think of the name of it right now. } Have you tried any type of support groups, physical or on line? I just read where your still drinking some wine, its possible your having an allergic reaction to the sulfites in the wine. Do you eat shellfish / shrimp? They too have sulfites.Allergies can cause depression, also. You said you didn't have any type of rehab , maybe your body didn't detox, then add antidep's to the mix, they add toxins too. Perhaps consider getting tested for a sulfite allergy.Just some thoughts for you to consider.Best wishes~~JerseyLymie
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 5, 2009
    • 11:11 AM
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  • hello,HRT only helps with female issues. You could be low on thyroid or other hormones. Alcohol is very dehydrating, you may even be missing some vitamins and minerals. You might also have some kind of infection or virus, undetected, that can be causing the depression and the other cognative problems. Have you seen a neurologist or had an mri of the brain ? Please see a doctor, and have them run blood work, to check for vit & mineral loss, other hormones, infections & viruses.Can you do some exercizing, they can boost some other hormones/ brain chemicals. { Sorry, I can't think of the name of it right now. } Have you tried any type of support groups, physical or on line? I just read where your still drinking some wine, its possible your having an allergic reaction to the sulfites in the wine. Do you eat shellfish / shrimp? They too have sulfites.Allergies can cause depression, also. You said you didn't have any type of rehab , maybe your body didn't detox, then add antidep's to the mix, they add toxins too. Perhaps consider getting tested for a sulfite allergy.Just some thoughts for you to consider.Best wishes~~JerseyLymieThank you so much for taking the time to reply. You have some good suggestions and I'll see what any can bring. I especially need to add some sort of support network in my life.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 5, 2009
    • 07:08 PM
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  • I'm a 50 yr old woman who was chronically depressed for 8 of the past 10 years. For 5 of those years I self medicated daily with alcohol. Fortunately, as the depression lifted I was able to stop abusing. Probably tried most anti-depressents without much success most likely due to the alcohol. I never had any rehab and have had little counseling over the years. Today, I have very little depression but have concluded I may never be totally free of it. I have an occasional glass of wine which is what my habits were before the depression. I am currently taking 150mg of bupropion twice a day and HRT's. Bottom line, I am a mere shadow of my old self. In particular I am unable to function well cognitively on any consistent basis. I have very poor recall, short memory span, can't maintain focus, easily overwhelmed, etc. I can say that I have improved greatly over the last 4 years but not enough to get, let alone maintain a job. Somedays are better than others which feeds my frustration on not being able to maintain any sort of consistancy. Many 80 year olds function better cognitively. I fear this is permanent and the direct result of the alcohol. To compound things, I'm sure hormones play a role but I would think the HRT's would help balance that. I can definately tell when it's hormones by the triggers I get emotionally. Otherwise, it's as if my mind is literally blank, like I'm day-dreaming, no depth. (This has taken nearly an hour to get this far) I process most everything very slowly and retain little. Sometimes caffeine really ehlps but again, it's temporary. In addition, once the alcohol stopped so did any actual dreaming. Maybe I still do but I am unaware of any. I am looking for anything I can do to get my life back. I am currently without health insurance and desperately need to go back to work. Could this be alcohol induced alzheimers? I would greatly appreciate ANY suggestions and/or comments.\Hi Brainless, http://forums.wrongdiagnosis.com/showthread.php?p=143413&posted=1#post143413 Come on over to the b12 deificiency forum and we can help you get started on a nutritional program to help your body heal. Many vitamins can be depleted by years of alcohhol usage including quite specifically b12. Not all b12 pills are created equal. We can tell you the effective ones and how to take them and what to take them with so as to get out of the brainfog and restore your enegy if nutrition is indeed your problems. Many of us have healed or are healing from situations like yours.
    Freddd 3576 Replies
    • February 6, 2009
    • 00:14 AM
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  • 1. Look into your current medication, and make sure your not experiencing side effects.2. Alcohol is a depressant, so if you feel depressed alcohol will only make you more depressed. You really need to stop drinking.3. Seek some counseling, often charities provide free counseling services AAA/salvation army etc. It's important to talk.4. If you don't feel confident to get back into the work force, try doing some part-time volunteer work instead. A few hours a week will help to build your confidence and help you to improve your brain function.5. Try some eco-therapy, visits to green space such as parks and gardens have been proven in studies to help people feel more calm and focused.6. Take some time everyday to drink a cup of tea and think about the good things in your life, the things that make you happy.7. Take a 20min walk every day, the exercise and routine will really help you to think.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 6, 2009
    • 00:10 PM
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