My symptoms initially: this all started 4 1/2 years ago where suddenly one day, and over a 2 month period I lost alot of my memory and
learning abilities, while this happened I heard voices. and from than on I've been suffering ever since. Here are my current symptoms.
They fluctuate but most of these I still have to some degree. My symptoms pretty much never go away, and they're there 24/7.
Seems chronic. Can't work right now ,let alone get out of bed. Some of my memory and learning abilities have come back but since last
year it's plataued.
-terrible short, short to long term memory. (struggle with reading retension, remembering clearly past events, and in general information)
-difficulty "thinking ahead" and get lost in middle of sentences
-learning deficit, (takes many times longer to learn new concepts and sometimes I never learn them)
-fogginess of thought (this varies)
-sometimes have trouble remembering words
-head feels like it's filled with concrete. Feels that only a small part of my brain is in use.
-feel blank mentally (like few thoughts are going through my head at given moment)
-trouble learning more than one thing at a time
-I have dreams where I'm brain damaged, and I feel brain damaged while I'm dreaming it.
-feels like brain damage
-cant hear thoughts in head very well (very soft)
-used to hear voices
-used to harbor delusions
Mood and other physical symptom difficulties
-anhedonia (I feel unemotional and uninspired. Nothing is fun or interesting anymore. Very rarely do I enjoy something.)
-I don't get as tired as I used to. takes long time to get to sleep. But when I do I sleep fine, but sometimes not.
frequently wake up
-flat affect, (goes up and down)
-feel like a copy of a copy sometimes
-feel 2 dimensional (often feel like a robot) can'y cry and barely get sad, loss of emotion
-sometimes feel lightheaded and feel faint
-low libido, (often can't ejaculate)
-for a while had decrease in vision.(got better)
-little to know alcohol effect (I find this bizarre)
-brain supplements and psychotropic drugs don't seem to work
-feel disconnected from senses and often reality (don't feel like I'm getting the whole human experience.)
-lots of anxiety!
-no energy most of the time (feel really run down and terrible)
-sometimes feel lightheaded like I'm going to faint, (almost did once. Doesn't seem like schizo-affective to me!)
-general intense uncomfortability (which is somewhat different than feeling anxious imo)
-few thoughts in head at one time (can't stress this enough)
-feel faint buzz in my ear (used to be louder)
-whole chest gets warm
-a couple of times I got the terrible sensation of my whole brain dying. I got tunnel vision, everything went darker and felt like some
force was trying to kill my brain. Hard to describe but very painful, and very scary.
what about electromagnetic radiation poisoning from cell phones? What about a dual diagnosis? My current Psychiatrist, who once told me
I had Schizo-Affective Disorder, now says do to the fact that I no longer hear voices, or have delusions, thinks maybe I have symptoms of a
mood disorder. But such a RAPID decrease in memory and cognition over a 2 month period doesn't seem like this is a mood disorder nor Alzheimers ,
but maybe something neurological? What about early onset Alzheimers? Other dementia? Do you think the cognitive problems and panic attacks
are related? It doesn't feel like a mood disorder. In the last month my flatness has gotten worse while my cognitive problems have
remained stable and maybe better. But I it's almost impossible to learn hard stuff and don't' think I could go back to school now. I also
can only think of a few things at once as opposed to a plethora of things.