Help. I have been suffering for 30 years and need some answers.
I remember as far back as 3 years old feeling completely out of body and detached, almost like my blood sugar was way too low. Throughout grade school, my anxiety was through the roof. I use to shake in class, unable to focus on ANYTHING. It felt like and still feels like my brain is empty. Like there is no "juice" up there to calm down my overactive brain, and allow it to work properly. This continued throughout highschool. I was very depressed and anxious at the same time. Finally in college, I had a breakdown. I had to go home, and didn't leave the house for months, I was so sick. My life circumstances were great and even when I felt happy on the inside, my body and mind didn't allow me to be in the present moment.
My chemistry, hormones, something, are COMPLETELY out of wack. I've been taken Zoloft for years now and while I feel better, I still feel like my body is connected to an electric socket, and doesn't allow me to rest EVER. I am scared to take all these meds the doctor prescribes because I'm already so deficient in these neurotransmitters, and don't want to burn them out.
I feel detached from myself all day. I have anxiety attacks pretty much all day. I love life and have so many big plans and things I want to do, but this is really hard. Life is hard enough, without having to FIGHT your brain all day.
I hate that doctors are so quick to start prescribing these medicines which are bandaids, when there are obviously deficiencies of nutrients or amino acids, or hormones or something causing this.
I've gone to endocronologists, neurologists, the works. Nothing unusual stood out.