I am new to this forum. I posted about my symptoms yesterday, but they didn't show up... and I am too tired to post them all.
Needless to say they jump around all over my body. My thyroid is never normal-- at first blamed on lithium--- but when they took me off of lithium it still wasn't normal--- but how it is abnormal changes everytime. I am 34 and had a TOTAL hysterectomy in January. I sweat all the time and have a low core body temp and my moods are off the wall. I am taking meds for manic depression. They are not helping. My memory is shot. I am so dizzy that I can't drive. I haven't really been able to drive since my surgery. I am too woozy and I get anxious and confused. I have been searching for what "sounds" like me. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia years ago, but I don't think I have this. I have swollen fingers and toes... My breasts are swollen... I have abdominal pain somewhere all the time... I am EXHAUSTED all the time...
IT goes on and on....
I used to be a teacher years ago, but I am on disability and at home w/ my mother now. It is just me and her.
She has to take me to my myriads of doctor appts. b/c I cannot drive myself-- or whatever test I am having requires sedation... like MRIs... can't handle the tube.... and CAT scans.
I used to weigh 135--- well, since all of this other weird stuff started-- I have jumped to 195. I am 5'8".
I don't like to go out and let people see me. I am very aware of how I look.
Well, anymore-- anytime my mother finds something that I have done wrong or something-- like I spilled sugar free pudding on my tepure-pedic mattress pad $$$ --- she just rips me a new one. Yesterday, I trimmed my bangs and didn't get all the hair up-- I thought I did-- and today, she ripped me a new one b/c of it. My sister is a nurse. She is 8 years younger than me and married and they have their own house etc. etc. oh yeah, she is like 105 pounds... and 5'4". My mom said to me this morning... are you going to be asleep or lock yourself in your room when your sister comes? I said "I don't know-- it depends on how I feel." (I spend a lot of time watching tv in bed)-- I am also very uncomfortable about how little and successful she is-- and I am not. I do the clothes EVERY SINGLE TIME-- I clean the best I can every day-- and it is NEVER ENOUGH. I cannot move out-- I don't have the money.
I printed out all the info about M.E. -- which is not the same as CFS-- I talked to a lady at the Rare Disease center--- and I know I have this. I told my mom--- she ripped me a new one-- she wouldn't even listen to the symptoms. The more I search to find what is wrong w/ me-- the more ticked off she gets. (I don't have a great family doc-- and am waiting to see a new one in November)
.So--- WHAT DO I DO???? I can't handle the stress of fighting all the time b/c of my condition --- and the symptoms I am trying to deal w/.
When the family does stuff like this, what do you do? How DO you handle it, when you can't move out.
PLEASE HELP ME.
It has made my depression way worse.
Advice Would BE greatly appreciated. I don't like fighting-- I just end up crying a lot and she tells me to "shut up."