last friday i drank rather a lot of wine as dutch courage to tell someone how i felt. it went fine up to when we left the pub. everything becomes hazy from this point like some half remembered dream. we went to a park and kissed and everything was going well even though i hardly remember it (not related to too much booze). however, i am suddenly sitting on the bench on my own and she is the other side of the park running away and very upset. i don't know what happened, however, she later told me that i had stopped kissing her and used vulgar language, made her feel 'like a cheap ***t' and made crude and rediculous references to one of her exes. i remember none of this. it was mentioned by my father that my grandmother had the same problem (she was an alcoholic) but could even become physical. the person who said those things was not me and i have no recollection of any of this and never use vulgar language. is there any literature on this problem and is it common?
(i have also given up drinking and am attending my first of many AA meetings tonight). needless to say she will never talk to me again.:(