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Mental insability

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • January 13, 2010
  • 10:02 PM

I think that I am insane. This started year ago when I was thirteen. I kept on seeing things in corners of rooms whether they were fully lighted or not. Usually I see mutilated corpses or monsters. The illusions started talking only recently. Sometimes I find myself having conversations with them. This is not a symptom of fear. I am not afraid of the dark, I haven't been since I turned six. I have never believed in monsters that were not human. I am, however, afraid of fear itself. About a half year ago, I started seeing blood everywhere. I can see it, smell it, feel it's warmth, and taste it too. All of my senses tell me it's there. Then my eyes clear and it's gone. When I try to sleep I always feel that some one is near me. In my dreams I see myself with open gashes, stitches, and bloody bandages I always have someone's head in my hand and I always drink the blood spilling from it. Yesterday in school I saw a creature come in and rip the head off of my teacher. I didn't scream. I just watched in fascination as it devoured her. I also zone out and end up in some sort of battle. The sky is blood red and there are bodies littering the ground. I always have a longsword and it's always in the heart of a king. I haven't told anybody about this because I think the will try to experiment on me. Especially since I have stopped seeing myself as human. Would someone please help me, I'm scared and I just tried to kill myself with my own hands. I obviously failed, but I fear that one day I might succeed, seeing as I was obviously born a murderer. This isn't a joke, I just talk strangely, anciently. And now I am tempted to cut myself. Help me, please. At least tell me how to talk to my parents. I need help.

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  • Hang in there. It sounds like you are experiencing psychosis. This is very treatable and not uncommon. It is often a symptom of Schizophrenia. No one will experiment on you - there are well established drugs that have been taken by millions of people that are safe and effective. My uncle has schizophrenia and had similar experiences for years. He would often see Satan and other horrific images. He too could hear, see, and smell things. They have excellent pills for people with this condition, and he no longer sees, hears, smells or tastes anything that is not there. He is a very happy and normal man as long as he takes his medicine. They aren't there, they can't hurt you, and you're not evil. You need to tell an adult about what is happening to you. If you are afraid to tell your parents, go to your school guidance counselor. He or she has been trained to deal with this stuff, and he will listen to you. If you don't want to do that either, just call 911. They will take you to the hospital where you will get excellent treatment. You have to trust the doctors. They don't want to hurt you. I hope you get better. Good luck.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • January 14, 2010
    • 00:17 AM
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  • In my opinion this is not a disease but spiritual. You need to be more in tune with Allah.I think that I am insane. This started year ago when I was thirteen. I kept on seeing things in corners of rooms whether they were fully lighted or not. Usually I see mutilated corpses or monsters. The illusions started talking only recently. Sometimes I find myself having conversations with them. This is not a symptom of fear. I am not afraid of the dark, I haven't been since I turned six. I have never believed in monsters that were not human. I am, however, afraid of fear itself. About a half year ago, I started seeing blood everywhere. I can see it, smell it, feel it's warmth, and taste it too. All of my senses tell me it's there. Then my eyes clear and it's gone. When I try to sleep I always feel that some one is near me. In my dreams I see myself with open gashes, stitches, and bloody bandages I always have someone's head in my hand and I always drink the blood spilling from it. Yesterday in school I saw a creature come in and rip the head off of my teacher. I didn't scream. I just watched in fascination as it devoured her. I also zone out and end up in some sort of battle. The sky is blood red and there are bodies littering the ground. I always have a longsword and it's always in the heart of a king. I haven't told anybody about this because I think the will try to experiment on me. Especially since I have stopped seeing myself as human. Would someone please help me, I'm scared and I just tried to kill myself with my own hands. I obviously failed, but I fear that one day I might succeed, seeing as I was obviously born a murderer. This isn't a joke, I just talk strangely, anciently. And now I am tempted to cut myself. Help me, please. At least tell me how to talk to my parents. I need help.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • January 16, 2010
    • 09:32 PM
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  • sounds more like a cry for help or attention to me, possibly as a result of something at home such as parental problems, disputes, I'd consider seeking a councillor first, spiritual guidance could be some way of dealing with it as the Allah basher suggests but I wouldn't bet on it, its more likely you simply need to talk through some problem or other.Maybe the firt step ought to be to talk to your parents about whatever it is bothering you.Unfortunately on that front its just a case of sucking it up and being direct, it may upset them, it may shock them, it may be that it will cause some rows but you simply have to make yourself heard, it may be that you do and it falls on deaf ears in which case as I said, try a councillor or helpline, otheriwse you just have to be brave and confront it. If any of this is true then whats more scarey eh? waking up and seeing bloody corpses or talking to your parents?
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • January 18, 2010
    • 00:03 PM
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