First things first, sometimes I get a feeling in my head that feels like mixture between a dull shock and the feeling you get when you're startled, thats the best way i can describe it. Sometimes it radiates down my right leg, occasionally my left though. It usually happens in the evening hours. Sometimes it just happens once or twice, but normally there's several episodes sequentially and it happens several times that evening. It started in early 2007 and it's getting worse over time. Lately, i've been spasming? not exactly sure what to call it. Again, it normally happens in the evening or when i'm tired. Its normally the chest and upper arms/shoulder muscles.
I'm also seeing a psychiatrist, my problems started out with depression, then severe mood swings. It seems to be getting worse, i know the meds are doing some good because when i forget to take them my day is a living ***l, i snap on people, i dont find any enjoyment in anything and i just want the day to be over. Sometimes i have paranoia as well, sometimes its that someone is going to do something bad to me, other times its just that everyone is doing stuff just to piss me off, which i guess doesn't really sound that much like paranoia. Lately i've been having disturbing thoughts as well, its like my thoughts just keep repeating themselves and its very manic. I've contemplated suicide those days because it was so bad. Its even woke me up in the middle of the night before. One way of describing it would be a bad trip. I've never done lsd, though i have smoked pot on occasion.
Please someone read this and give me their thoughts, even if you dont really know what it would be.