Ok, I'm the one who asked about, what could be wrong with me? This is what I posted: Ok, I've had a problem with certain music for awhile now. The music I'm having trouble with is music from Kiss FM. Examples: That Girlfriend song, "Don't use wish your girlfriend was hot like me", "Lips of an Angel" and basicly the music that is of now days.
In 7th grade I had to back up in a corner, because I didn't like it. They played it in percussion. I didn't have bad thoughts though.
In 8th grade I started to feel worse and knew something was wrong. Eventually, I started to have bad thoughts after I heard the music. Things like death thoughts and a few times those thoughts/feelings were disliking God (trust me I'd never dislike him in a normal state of mind). In 8th grade I noticed it lingered for me longer than it used to. Meaning I didn't think about those thoughts before, in 6th or 7th, but now I have and they've gotton worse.
In 9th grade ('m in 9th grade now) I had to hear a certain song. I thought I could put away my CD player, because I thought we were getting off of the bus.... big mistake. I'm pretty sure by the end of the day/next day I had bad thoughts.
Now if I'm under too much pressure I may end up thinking bad thoughts. (I know this because my homework was putting me under too much pressure.) A little bit while before now ( I'm pretty sure yesterday or the day before) I didn't know how much more I could take.
I'm not thinking those thoughts now, but once I go back to school I'll be put under way too much pressure.
So, does anyone know what's wrong with me? Is anymore info. needed to help figure my problem out?
But, no one has given me a diagnosis. Please, I need someone's help. I was put under so much pressure I couldn't even finish a school worksheet. I kept throwing my pencils (one at a time) against the wall.
I need someone's help as soon as possible..... before I do something I can't control.