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I Seriously have an insane embarassment problem for years now..

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  • Posted By: lauraispikachu
  • August 27, 2008
  • 07:45 AM

Ok, this is the first time I've ever talked about it so I might explain it bad. (I'm a 17 year old girl by the way). I can't do anything that's me around my boyfriend. I am constantly in fear or singing, or playing guitar (I can do both fairly ok), or talk about food i like ( I've have sort of an eating disorder i am recovering from extreme bulemia, i binge sometimes still but nothing to serious, i just feel so fat talking about fattening foods i like and we have so much of them in common), I can't make simple decisions, like picking a song or piece of clothing, I never admit when i went shopping or if my clothes are new ( I'm embarassed about that somehow i don't even know! maybe i'm scared I'll be called spoiled or cheap idk....), every little thing you can think of it it distresses me constantly i get so fearful when confronted i just can't deal with it what's wrong with me? ugh

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  • you don't sound comfortable around your boyfriend. sounds as if you make a "wrong" move, he'll dump you or at least make you feel inferior. Dump him and get on with your life. No one deserves to feel this way. get someone you can say anything around and not feel as you do now.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • August 27, 2008
    • 10:21 AM
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  • I used to be very nervous around my boyfriend too when I was 17. I could not eat with him-- too embarrassing. I'm happy to say that it passed. I'm an old lady now in her 40's. I got a new boyfriend I felt comfortable just being me with. We've been married for almost 30 years. It's ok to be human, nervous, and vulnerable.
    aquila 1263 Replies
    • August 27, 2008
    • 04:27 PM
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  • I'm 35 & was/am still a bit like you describe. It sounds like you want him to like you but don't think he will unless you act a certain way. That's not a good foundation for a relationship. My relationship with my ex husband started that same way. You need to be you, not what he wants you to be. If you keep suppressing yourself, you will come to a point where you will have no idea who you are as a person. In relationships, honesty is always best. Think of it as being dishonest in a way. I mean, he obviously wants to get to know you. It is scary sometimes, I know. I've gone back and forth on the eating disorder spectrum for years. You need to have more regard for yourself and try to step outside your comfort zone a little. If your boyfriend doesn't like you for you, then he's not worth it :) Remember, the only guy worth crying over is the one who doesn't make you cry.
    jenb73 2 Replies
    • August 27, 2008
    • 04:29 PM
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  • Ok, this is the first time I've ever talked about it so I might explain it bad. (I'm a 17 year old girl by the way). I can't do anything that's me around my boyfriend. I am constantly in fear or singing, or playing guitar (I can do both fairly ok), or talk about food i like ( I've have sort of an eating disorder i am recovering from extreme bulemia, i binge sometimes still but nothing to serious, i just feel so fat talking about fattening foods i like and we have so much of them in common), I can't make simple decisions, like picking a song or piece of clothing, I never admit when i went shopping or if my clothes are new ( I'm embarassed about that somehow i don't even know! maybe i'm scared I'll be called spoiled or cheap idk....), every little thing you can think of it it distresses me constantly i get so fearful when confronted i just can't deal with it what's wrong with me? ugh Um, I don't want to be harsh, but you are still obviously suffering from a major eating disorder if you are still occasionally "bingeing"... you are fooling yourself. This is VERY serious and will cause you sooo many problems down the road if you don't get this dealt with NOW. I have had friends and colleaques who have suffered from this disorder for years - it is horrible and I am sorry you are having such trouble. But you need to get this under control before you end up with major neurological and GI damage. Please address this! You need to get on a methylcobalamin B12 supplement as bulemia (and anorexia) will cause B12 deficiency. I would also recommend a good pancreatic digestive enzyme to help you digest your food properly, as this is also deficient with eating disorders. I hope you get the therapy and counseling you need. You can make positive changes - it's hard, but you must do this to stay well and healthy! Best wishesDOM
    acuann 3080 Replies
    • August 27, 2008
    • 06:08 PM
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  • If you really want to help yourself, learn and practice EFT:http://www.emofree.com/
    Monsterlove 2921 Replies
    • August 27, 2008
    • 10:51 PM
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  • It is quite normal for teen girls to have many concerns such as yourself at your age. Even now at 37 yrs.. i will never sing in front of anyone, (hey but i do have a good reason.. my singing voice IS very bad!). At 17, you are moving out of childhood and into adulthood (as you already know :P) . This can cause many insecurities as you start to make your OWN choices (rather your parents making choices for you) esp if you are lacking in self confidence. I think you are currently lacking in a lot of self confidence. Counselling could be good for that and to address your eatting disorder too (which from your post, I still believe you have). I think you should seek to have some counselling to help you. (and thou you probably will be embarrassed about that too, I hope you have the sense to see and know that it could help. It would be good for you to honestly express yourself).
    taniaaust1 2267 Replies
    • August 28, 2008
    • 01:27 AM
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