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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • March 10, 2010
  • 05:02 AM

I have been struggling with what i think is anxiety or panic attacks, and depression. I have been to the doctor before about this and they just put me on antidepressants. i have tried two different types Prozac, and Paxil. Neither of them have helped me with the symptoms i am having. I have been having these symptoms for about 2 years now. I am attending college and i find myself not wanting to go to class because i don't like to be around people like i used to. I feel uncomfortable, i start sweating, getting really hot, dizzy, and start feeling nautilus. This doesn't only happen in class, it happens anywhere that there is a large crowd of people. I start feeling so nervous. Also, when i am in a vehicle, whether i'm driving or if someone else is driving i get sooo scared. Especially when there is a lot of traffic. I start sweating, i grasp onto the seatbelt or the side of the door so hard that it actually hurts my hands afterwards, my heart starts racing so hard that i can feel it pounding in my chest without putting my hand to it, I have images running through my head that I am going to end up in an accident and die. Another thing that i have noticed is that i used to LOVE going shopping and going to the mall but now, i just have no interest because there are so many people around and it makes me feel the sweating, nausea, and the heart pounding. This also goes along with hanging out with my friends. I used to hang out with them everyday doing anything, going anywhere, having fun enjoying the time i spent with them having the time of my life, but i slowly backed away from hanging out with them and i don't know why. The only time i talk to them anymore is when they text me every now and then. Also, my family was tore apart at about the same time i stated getting these symptoms. My mom, my sister, and i all lived together and then my sister and i were removed from the home when i was 17. I got to stay with my grandma in the same town that my mom was still living in but my sister who is almost five years younger than i was sent to live with my dad and his girlfriend in a whole different state. I moved back into my moms about 4 or 5 months after i was taken out, but my sister is still gone and i worry about her everyday. She has been through a lot in her life and i get so worked up when i think about how she is doing or if she is okay. I an constantly worrying about my mom and her health because she is only 36 years old and she has Lupus, Fibromyalgia, Disk Degenerative Disease, and Osteoporosis. She just recently found out that she needs a hip transplant, surgery on her kidney, and there are 6 disks in her back that are disintegrating quickly. Her kidneys, blood, brain, and skin are all being affected by these diseases.I sit and think every day about what's next. I can't lose my mom, i don't know what i would so without her. She's my best friend. She is on disability because she is so sick. Her life is so hard because she can barely pay her bills so i am always having to take care of my mom and help her out with money when she needs it even though i can't afford it because i have my own bills to worry about. But i will never not help her or any of my family members in need. I will always be there for them no matter what. I worry about her every day. My biological father and i have never had a healthy relationship, he used to verbally and physically abuse me by hitting me to leave bruises on my body up until i was the age of 17; he would beat me with brooms, his fist, open hand slaps, he would grab ahold of me and shake me so hard, sometime he would literally pick me up and throw me against walls. And every time this happened i never did anything to deserve it. There were police reports made and my mom did take him to court. There was a point in time where we had to have supervised visits. I have always been afraid of him, although our relationship has gotten a lot better in the last 6 months since he has been taking anger management classes. I hate to say this about my family but he was a drunk for a part of his life; from a young age in high school until he was 27. He actually ended up with 3 drunk drivings within one year. As a result, he lost his license, and to this day he still doesn't have them back and he is 37. He did turn his life around and completed AA meetings and still to this day does not drink, he has a great job and he is doing better than ever. This also worries me about my sister living with him so far away because what if he relapses and this starts happening to her? I wouldn't be able to get to her soon enough to save her. And of course I worry about my dad because he is my dad and i do love him. I don't want to ever see him at that low of a point in his live ever again. Depression and anxiety both run in every single person on my moms side of the family and some on my dads side of the family. I have done some research and also, my family has told me that it is hereditary. I would just like to know what i should do? I have gone to doctors to try telling them my feelings but when i get into the room with them i get so nervous and i don't know what to say and i am afraid to speak up. Would it be best to keep going to a regular family doctor or should i see a psychiatrist to see if they can help me? I have seen councilors but just talking to someone doesn't work because once again, i am afraid. I know i need medication no doubt, but i have never been one to like to take medication. What would be some suggestions for medication i should research that would work for me so i can try talking to my doctor about it? The people with anxiety and depression in my family are on medications like Xanex, Kalonapin and other antidepressant. I would just like a response on what you think i should try taking or start researching more so that i can talk to my doctor about it.

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