I have really bad ups and downs, but mostly downs, something really good could happen to me that I should be happy about but after a couple of minuets I'm depressed and most of the time I'm depressed for no apparent reason.
I constantly have an image problem, sometimes I'll be happy with how I look but most of the time I just have to change how I look completely because I hate it, I can't stay the same person for too long as I get bored and recent myself.
I always think more of relationships then I should, the person in question always means a lot more to me then I do to them, and its not just with guys (as I'm a girl) its with everyone that I encounter, I instantly believe were the best of friends.
This also links in with the fact that I have a recurring eating disorder, every year at some point I decide that I hate myself and how I look and I stop eating. Other times I'll binge eat though and can't control myself.
I've had a problem with self-harm for 2 years now and can't seem to beat it, I want to stop but can't, its the only way I can feel better. I do have suicide thoughts from time to time, I plan but never act though.
I also have a problem with stealing, I don't want to do it but have a compulsion to take things. It makes me feel powerful.
I can be quite OCD sometimes, there's three people in my house so I have to have the middle plate etc. and when I preform a task I have to count to 10.
I know that I'm an insomniac, acute-insomnia to be exact but generally having a sleeping disorder means that's there's another problem, but I don't know what that is, can anyone tell me what I have and put me out of my misery?