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how do i know whats real and whats not - i really want to die

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  • Posted By: Thats Not Real
  • June 4, 2008
  • 07:42 PM

hi, i have a problem....

im having extreme hallucinations, they are pretty much 24/7. my recent one was today and i was in a doctors office being told i had cancer, and about 50 other things.

i can sometimes tell whats real, but ont always. yesterday i had a mental health test or whatever they do, you know the questions ect do you hear voices blah blah blah.

it was concluded that i:

do NOT have any mental illness, at the end of this they over looked my answers ect and told me i do not have any mental illness. not even depression. my doctor has no clue whats wrong.

i have some where i am being murdered, and it is so scary. its so real... but then i get paralyzed and all i see is double and blurry vision for 5 minutes and "wake up" in a daze.

i have also concluded that i have very long lasting hallucinations, because i was in bed doing stretches one morning, before i go to work and then i woke up, again double and blurry vision in a daze.

when i was stretching it was 9:36am june first then i "woke up" at 1:42pm june second!!! thats a whole day!!!

i tell everybody possible but even if i do tell them i end up doubting that i ever even spoke to that person.

im so scared and confused and to be honest i dont even know if this is real.

i cant tell whats real and whats not!!!!

i have even begin to cut myself because when it hurts i know its real. but i have had hallucinations where i get cut and it doesnt hurt. thats how i know real from non real sometimes

everyday i want to kill myself my doctor wont help me, his first and only guess was mental illness which was ruled out. now hes saying its in my head, i cannot do anything. not my job ect, i am starving because i hardly eat,

my life is total ***l, but i just want to know whats wrong, please.. any help is greatly appreciated!

thanks in advance,

Eric

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  • does anybody have any ideas? please i am so desperate for help! :( :( :(
    Thats Not Real 3 Replies Flag this Response
  • wow--i don't have a clue here--i think i would check myself in somewhere. Do you live with anyone who could verify these oddites to a doctor? The obvious question is are you doing acid, but I would guess that then you would know the source of the hallucinations. Just an off the wall thought here, but any chance you're narceleptic and these are actually dreams not hallucinations?
    chromegirl666 101 Replies Flag this Response
  • I would say you need to see a Neurologist- especially since you've been evalutated for schitzophrenia and been cleared. Your brain can do all sorts of weird things on you when you have tumors or other things putting pressure on your brain. Do you have a fever?
    dizzy lizzie 192 Replies Flag this Response
  • wow--i don't have a clue here--i think i would check myself in somewhere. Do you live with anyone who could verify these oddites to a doctor? yes, i am living with my brother at this moment and he has actually seen me fall to the floor and "wake up" hours later. he doesnt move me or anything because he doesnt know what will happen or what ever, but he has been to the doctor with my and has been pretty "aggresive" in the sense that he will get into an argument with the doctor. the doctor says we are lying, he says we are telling the truth ect. i have also had my mother come with us but the doctor wont do much. he tells her the same thing that he tells my bro so im pretty much getting nowhere. also, when you said "i would check myself in somewhere" do you mean a hospital? because if so i think that needs to be done by a doctor and i might have trouble there. or i could find another doctor... I would say you need to see a Neurologist- especially since you've been evalutated for schitzophrenia and been cleared. Your brain can do all sorts of weird things on you when you have tumors or other things putting pressure on your brain. Do you have a fever? i get fevers sometimes but not always. actually a lot of the time i am VERY cold. i even have 5 - 10 mins a day when im hot one second cold the next. when i do have fevers i take my temp, the usual is 99 - 102 and the highest was 104 which my doc passed off as a "common cold" also, thank you very much for the suggestion about seeing a Neurologist. my brothers doctor is actually a neurologist so ill see if its possible to get an appointment with my bros doc. thanks for all the help so far and any further help
    Thats Not Real 3 Replies Flag this Response
  • a mental hospital will allow you to check yourself in and if your let them in on the feeling that your so at your wits end that your headed toward suicide that will require them to evaluate you for a minimum of 24 or else its their behind on the line if you hurt yourself. Then even if it is medical you can take their word to a new doctor. The current one is obviously not listening. Even if the current one believed you were lying thats a serious case of hypochondianism you were displaying if it weren't true. He should have at least responded to that. Sounds like a crappy doc.
    chromegirl666 101 Replies Flag this Response
  • a mental hospital will allow you to check yourself in and if your let them in on the feeling that your so at your wits end that your headed toward suicide that will require them to evaluate you for a minimum of 24 or else its their behind on the line if you hurt yourself. Then even if it is medical you can take their word to a new doctor. The current one is obviously not listening. Even if the current one believed you were lying thats a serious case of hypochondianism you were displaying if it weren't true. He should have at least responded to that. Sounds like a crappy doc. ok, but i have one question... could i just go in and check myself in? because id like to do that today, because i want to know whats gonig on
    Thats Not Real 3 Replies Flag this Response
  • As far as I know you can. My sister has been checked in, but my niece has been both put in and checked herself in. Just go into on and start telling them whats going on and that your feeling suicidal and they should get you to where you need to be. Like I was saying, if you were to hurt yourself and they didn't even do so much as a 24 hour evaluation, by law its their fault for turning you away. Its sad that law needs to be there, but its there to protect you. So if they hear your suicidal and don't help it was a really crappy place and you didn't want to be checked in there anyway--they're shady then.
    chromegirl666 101 Replies Flag this Response
  • I too are thinking it sounds as if you are dreaming and possibly having , hypnagogic hallucinations.. and when you said the following " i am living with my brother at this moment and he has actually seen me fall to the floor and "wake up" hours later. " Well it makes me think of narcolepsy. Ones with Narcolepsy can just fall asleep at odd times and in odd places. I also think your doctor should of ordered a test of your brain waves.. maybe you are entering sleep brain wave state while awake... or something like that. I'd think that would be highly confusing. Hypnogogic hallucinations are mostly experienced by those with narcolepsy although it is experienced occasionally by many others without the condition, for example, during periods of stress, sleep deprivation or drug withdrawal http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypnagogia It isnt uncommon for people to feel suicidal if they are suffering from an debilitating illness and not believed by their doctor.
    taniaaust1 2267 Replies Flag this Response
  • Google : Sleep Paralysis and read up on it. I've had it happen to me, and its very scary and sounds similar to some of your problems. I would say you have a series of different conditions to deal with, but just read up on this one. Best of luck and prayers to you
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • October 21, 2010
    • 01:54 AM
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