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hallucinations, suicide thoughts, cravings for heroin, shaking, sweating

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • June 22, 2011
  • 11:42 AM

Hi, I have a serious problem… the last 2 or 3 months I have been overwhelmed by things happening in my head, I struggle to Identify things that is real from things that are not! It feels like day dreaming but when I wake up I cant remember what or where I am, or how I got there! I constantly hear people calling my name and the only way to get rid of the noise is to put loud music in my ears! I shake and sweat so much that even typing this is hard to do. I have little to no ability to concentrate and forget things I did 10 seconds ago. The affects of this on my life is that I mediate with strong alcohol sometimes up to 2 bottles of whiskey a night, witch I never did before. I have never done heroin before in my life and I have this huge overwhelming crave for heroin and I don’t even know where to get it or how to use it. I was in a mental institution for 3 weeks and got out a week ago feeling worse than I did before I went in. I’m asking for help here because I believe that the psychiatrists that was suppose to help me get better, gave me drugs that made my condition worse and did not even want to help me at all!!! I am busy writing suicide notes all day in my head and don’t know what to do….??? Please help me I don’t know how much more I can take this

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  • Wow. I really can relate in a lot of ways and I am truly concerned for you. My symptoms are quite similar though I do not crave heroin or use alcohol. I suffer from severe benzodiazepine withdrawal as a result of my inability to afford health care and a very misguided rapid taper-off from a medication I was put on in complete ignorance. I too am having a very hard time typing and have a hard time distinguishing reality from hallucination. I am fighting my own body with everything I have. I cry, shake, sweat, can't sleep or eat & do have a hard time keeping my thoughts from self-harm. I close my eyes but they won't relax, just ***k around & are truly maddening. That said, I am fighting it. I really hope you do not act on your cravings for heroin and can somehow curb the alcohol. I do know how very hard that can be. I used to drink and it truly is a way we cope, whether we know it or not. You clearly do. Please hang in there! I wish I could recommend getting treatment, but I can't get it myself. I feel quite sabatoged and betrayed by the industry in general. It's inexact, varied, inconsistent, and in all a business more than anything. I don't know if I'm any help with my jaded opinion, but know we're out here fighting with you, pathetic as we may be. Take care of yourself and please don't worsen your situation with further substance usage.
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  • Wow. I really can relate in a lot of ways and I amtruly concerned for you. My symptoms are quite similar though I do not crave heroin or use alcohol. I suffer from severe benzodiazepine withdrawal as a result of my inability to afford health care and a very misguided rapid taper-off from a medication I was put on in complete ignorance. I too am having a very hard time typing and have a hard time distinguishing reality from hallucination. I am fighting my own body with everything I have. I cry, shake, sweat, can't sleep or eat & do have a hard time keeping my thoughts from self-harm. I close my eyes but they won't relax, just ***k around & are truly maddening. That said, I am fighting it. I really hope you do not act on your cravings for heroin and can somehow curb the alcohol. I do know how very hard that can be. I used to drink and it truly is a way we cope, whether we know it or not. You clearly do. Please hang in there! I wish I could recommend getting treatment, but I can't get it myself. I feel quite sabatoged and betrayed by the industry in general. It's inexact, varied, inconsistent, and in all a business more than anything. I don't know if I'm any help with my jaded opinion, but know we're out here fighting with you, pathetic as we may be. Take care of yourself and please don't worsen your situation with further substance usage.
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