Forgot to mention at night he jerks so bad that he does a half situp. He has hit me numerous times and we are looking into seperate beds. Is this because of his meds or a symptom? His medications are as follows:
Lyrica 100mg 3x/day
Cymbalta 30mg 1x/day
Tramadol 50mg 3x/day
He was taking Oxycotin and finally switched to these. So im thinking its not a side effect of the meds. He doesnt seem addicted to medication, and seems to not get any pleasure whatsoever, not even much pain relief. He told me his pain is greatly worse in cold or wet weather.
He has lately had difficulty somedays holding onto something with his hand- coffee jar. Other days he is fine. After eating, i hear him clearing his throat over and over. When asked he said he has difficulty swallowing but only after eating briefly.
It should be noted that my husband in the 10 years i have been married to him has never ever had the flu, a cold, anything. He never complained of anything or missed one day of work until 2 years ago. He is now unemployed and disabled. He is 33 years old, and too young to be bed-ridden.
I am rather curious about something. When all of this started he became highly addicted to computer games and would hardly sleep or eat. His left elbow has some sort of problem i forget what its called but doctors want to move the tendon over. Could this help him? Could gaming be the problem? He is still, when not in bed, in an easy chair gaming.
I want my life back. I feel like my life is over. I know that it is him going through it but i feel like... I am seeing my husband die every day. I cannot just grieve and go on. There is no going on without answers. I want to just runaway, scream and cry. But there is no one to help. Im devestated.