I live with fear 24/7 365.. Lets start at the beginning of this, I,m a 33 year male 6' 1" 235 lbs. I was in prison for 4 years, lockup as a young boy from 10 to age 14. I considered my self a so called tough guy. In the summer of 95 i was attacked in my home with a baseball bat at 3 in the morning on a saturday night by 4 men, i was able to escape with little damage, life was fine i continued my tough guy ways. 1 year later i was living in a new place and the same thing happened again, different ppl, but had my head split open by a pistol. tough guy ways contiued, 1 year after that it happened again. Ever since the last time i just shut down living life locked down in my home. I won't go out after dark, i always think ppl are after me, think ppl driving behind me are after me, have 7 deadbolts locking the front door. life is just out of control with my fear. I just do not know how i could go from some who would scrap with anyone to afraid of my shadow. Need help or any one who is experinceing this them selfs. sorry i'm not a great typer.
Fear in texas