So I have been feeling like this for over a month, and my body is tired. I haven't been taking any medicine really other than Ativan to calm my nerves... and I just recently started Cymbalta. I do not know what's wrong... It has been such a journey.
General weakness in entire body
Fatigue and more pronounced weakness on left side of body, started in foot and then progressed to leg, then arm.
Feeling of being "full" in left side of abdomen, from nipple down to top of hip. no pain. I seem to think that it seems just a slight bit swollen but my mom says she can't tell a difference.
tightness in chest/ribs and when breathing, but can breathe fine
feeling that heart is tired
rumbling in stomach/left side that seems to be occurring more than normal
vibrating sensation in body, mostly in legs, but can be felt all over.
palpitations (can feel it sometimes in stomach, head,
muscle spasms (they are very small and occur mostly in arms and legs, these come and go)
loss of appetite
slight shaking sometimes
trouble swallowing sometimes
major trouble sleeping
blood shot/tired eyes
"pass out" feeling.... feeling of "woahh" I need to sit down. I have only felt this a few times, and it has been happening less and less.
The feeling and loss of depersonalization is definitely more pronounced when I got outside or away from the house, which I guess would be normal for the way I am feeling. I feel like I cannot leave without feeling awful. When I leave all I can think about is just getting back home. It's very scary.
I have been under the care of a neurologist ever since I started having the weird feeling in the left side of my body, and he ordered a spine and brain MRI which came back normal. I have also been under the care of several doctors, have gotten a pretty significant amount of blood work done, all comes back normal. Just got the results of 7 vials of blood that I gave for testing wednesday back today, including CBC, thyroid, arthritis, etc. etc. all normal. I am thinking that I might have some type of autoimmune disease, but I haven't found anything that really line up with the dreamy, out of touch feeling that I have. And what about the weird feeling in my left side? I was thinking for the longest time it might be MS... but from the MRI and physical exam, my nuero says it is definitely not.
A little history about me...
Back in about 2005... I started having this dreamy feeling, but it was not pronounced as it is now. I had a general feeling that I was not here... in a dream. But not really the loss of reality. I feel like I was more connected back then, mainly having more of a brain fog. I went to many many doctors and specialists. to no avail. Several brain scans, CT and MRI, and two nueros, nothing. Then I finally broke down and went to a psychiatrist who prescribed me Lexapro. It seemed to help me so I took it for a while. Before I knew it I was somewhat back to normal. I didn't feel all the way back to how I felt before I started getting sick, but I felt better. I was able to get back to my life, and still had some of the weird feelings sometimes, even having the "pass out" feeling sometimes (I think that the pass out feeling could be an anxiety attack... not really sure though.)
So I have been pretty much okay ever since then, up until about a month ago, which is when I got sick. I was originally diagnosed by an Urgent Care Clinic with Mycoplasma Pneumonia, but I wasn't convinced I had it because I wasn't exhibiting any of the symptoms. Went back several times, switched medicines, to no avail.
Thought it would get better, but it has only gotten much, much worse. As I said, I am at the point now that I can pretty much not function. I have had to put in a leave of absence at work, and I pretty much cannot leave my house.
I have been under a lot of stress lately, mind you I usually handle it pretty well. I have had two family members die in the past year, someone from my work that I didn't know well committed suicide, my father is in Afghanistan (coming home in a few weeks, I want to be better for that!!!), a very devastating round of Tornadoes ripped through my area in Alabama, my sister has been very sick, etc etc etc...
So my question is.... could this be some type of depression/stress alone causing all of these symptoms?? I am SO desperate for relief... I cannot function. It sucks so bad. As I said, I was thinking that maybe it was some kind of disease, and it still might be, but what do I do??
My internal medicine doctor prescribed generic bupropion (Wellbutrin) 75mg IR once a and Lunesta. Stopped the bupropion and switched to Cymbalta two days ago. Ativan when I need it when I feel really bad.
So my question is... should I go ahead and see a psyche? Or could this still be some type of physical diseast?? I need to get better soon because my dad is coming home from Afghanistan... but I have a bad feeling that it is going to be very hard to get back to normal. I have been literally sitting at home with the exception of doctor's appointments for nearly two months.
I am SO desperate for some type of relief. And I know it's not going to happen overnight, but I just feel like I almost don't have a mind anymore.... and I want it back! What do I do?!
Thank you so much for any help that you can provide.