it would honestly mean the world to me if anyone has advice, i am currently devastated at what is happening
as of these last few weeks my stomach has pretty much been controlling my life and consuming my mind but i'm trying really hard to turn it around. i'm taking these probiotics-it's just like taking a pill full of good bacteria for my stomach so it's all natural stuff that will hopefully get rid of whatever is causing my constant diareah. i have also cut all dairy out of my diet and i am trying to eat a lot of fiber. i went out and bought lactaid chocolate ice cream and it tastes just like regular ice cream so i feel kinda skeptical.. but i guess i'll find out soon if i should be or not.
to give a little more background information... for the last few months pretty much all of my bowel movements have been loose, either diarrhea or even worse... the runs. i'll admit that i was eating tons of dairy, mostly cheese and ice cream. it's been about a week and a half since i've had any dairy but still everytime i go to the bathroom it's loose or runny. i know this could all be stress induced because i have been under a lot of stress lately (exam week, traveling for two weeks, finding new roommates, my best friend moving). but i read that stress shouldn't ultimately always cause diarrhea.
the reason i say that diarrhea has taken control of my life is because it is given me this fear that anytime i leave my apartment i won't be able to find a bathroom close enough if i have an urgent episode. i have also gained the fear that i will have to go urgently when i am with a group of people. i don't want them to know and i also don't want to have to keep leaving (seeing as thought i usually go up to 4 times within the hour my loose stools begin). i also quit my job because of this happening while at work. i was highly embarrassed and felt like a complete failure walking away. i felt like it wasn't my choice to leave, and that it was my stomachs choice.
i need some words of encouragement, my confidence and self esteem are seriously shot. i am a 20 year old college student who should be getting out there and having fun but it's like everytime i start to get in a great mood again, i'll think "oh this isn't so bad it kinda forces me to be healthy and i'll probably loose weight and i'm sure i can find alternatives for stuff i can't eat...." and i'll go a few days thinking this and i'll get really encouraged because i feel great about myself and i just know that there's no i'll have diarrhea since i've eaten so healthy and well. But then all of a sudden it'll happen again and it feels like i did all that work for no reason. i feel so trapped and like i have no control over my body!! and i'm supposed to start school and work in two weeks and if this is going to happen everytime i'm nervous then i'm just screwed.