At my last visit to the Dr., he said "There's obviously something very wrong with you, I just don't know what it is.".
I'm dying, unfortunately, and it seems there's nothing anyone can do. Let me start at the beginning so this makes sense. I'm a 31 y/o female, by the way.
I've been a sick person all my life. As in, I get sick with everything all year long. Since I was a baby I've had bronchitis at least twice a year, pneumonia now and then, and both followed by pleurisy half the time. I've got a cold or the flu more often than not. I've had MRSA at two different spots in my leg, recurring strep throat, abcessed teeth, and on and on.
I've always had less energy than most people, but everyone has always chalked it up to me being "lazy". But over the past 10 years my lack of energy has gotten much worse. I have days where I can barely walk from one room to the next, times when it feels I can barely move my arms and feel my legs will give out underneath me.
About 5 years ago my hair started falling out, and now so much of my hair is gone that I wear wigs because you can see my scalp from any angle. My skin is intensely dry, I get cold in 80 degree weather, and I often feel like there's a lump in my throat. Now to where it gets bad...
About a year and a half ago I woke up one morning and found I was completely insane. I was suddenly terrified that I was being drugged, either through my food, the air, or by touching "contaminated" things. I had never, ever had worried about such a thing before, and it was instantaneous, like someone had flipped a switch in my head. I began seeing a psychiatrist who told me it's very unusual for something like that to just pop up suddenly, unless it's caused by something physical. Because of the fear of food contamination, I can barely eat and have gone from 220 pounds down to my current 89 pounds (I'm 5'8).
My primary care doctor ran tests for everything, from thyroid panel to ANA (which came up positive but low, she he considered it a negative) and everything in between. What's odd is that even though I'm so clearly malnourished, my blood tests were all normal (aside from slight anemia, which I've had all my life). Electrolytes, potassium, you name it were all normal even though I probably consume less than 300 calories a day.
I'm convinced that whatever's made me sick my whole life, and has been getting progressively worse, is also what triggered the mental disorder, as is my doctor.
But what is it?
I have little time or hope left.
My Dr. suggested I see an internist next, but I can't afford that (I see that Dr. through a special program they have).
Does anyone have any ideas what could be wrong with me?