My blood glucose was 81 and 85 the 2 times I went
to the doctor. Both times I was feeling the same symptoms. I have had hemoglobin a1c, thyroid, cbc - all results were healthy. 3 different doctors and no good answers.
Still not sure
what the issue is. I was reading about stress and cortisol and that could have
something to do with it.
I graduated college in May, in May and June I
was talking with a girl I've talked to on and off for the last few years (she
has some issue where she thinks she wants a relationship then once we start
getting close she sas she gets freaked out when things get too serious, she
isn't ready for the emotional connection or something like that) and she had
finally indicated she finally wanted to be with me and we were talking every day
then I go down to Florida to see my dad and get to spend a couple days with her
and once again she back peddled on me. So that caused a lot of stress and
anxiety having to readjust. My dad moved to Florida at the end of June. I moved
to Texas alone to start a new job. The job was the exact opposite of my
expectations (and what I was told by the company), I enter into a sales engineer
training program thinking I would be out doing real training with the sales
engineers but instead 90% of my time was sitting in a cubicle reading technical
information. I had to push myself to get through the day. I knew I hated it from
day one. I did this for 5 weeks. I had deep depression the first 3 weeks in
Texas, it cycled off and on, sometimes I was just tired, others I was on the
floor thinking it was time to end it (I've had suicidal thoughts in the past,
mostly just planning what I would give to people and imagining how I would want
my funeral to go, this time the suicidal thoughts were straight to the point. If
I thought I could eliminate all risk of shooting myself and not dieing and being
brain damaged I'm not sure if I would still be here). Generally when i have
suicidal thoughts I can laugh them off and tell myself it's just a dip in some
chemical level and it'll come back shortly. I had a 3 week break from the office
- 2 weeks at a factory and 1 week at corporate training with other people, then
it was back to the office where, as expected, I was still exhausted every day.
When I decided to quit I got a temporary energy boost that eventually wore off.
Then I moved back to my moms so I had a depressed cycle again from the
readjustment, not as severe as in Texas, but still feeling hopeless, occasional
suicidal thoughts, negative outlook, thinking more about how meaningless the
world is. I've also had some worry and confusion over what career path I want to
My mental/physical fatigue is probably from stress. But the
confusing part is I don't feel stress. So now I want to ask everyone how do they
feel stress. I guess I am thinking of it as the type of stress like when you
have a test coming up and you are thinking about it and you can feel the weight
on your shoulders. I don't feel tense. I feel relatively calm, even when I was
still in Texas.
Could all of this just be from stress but it is some
type of stress where I don't feel the stress but only see the symptoms of
inability to consume sugar without getting brain fog and constant fatigue?
I have been avoiding gluten for a few days and I have stayed away from sugar for several weeks with a few exception, where I got brain fog the next day.
Also, I had a tension headache for nearly the entire 8 weeks in Texas. I don't remember when it started. I didn't know what a tension headache was until a few weeks ago when I found something that sounded like what I felt. Just noticed a few days ago that when I rub the sides of my head the muscles feel sore. It seems like it has finally loosened up.
Hope someone can help!