ive been concerned with this for a while now (over a year).
my symptoms go a little like this,
i go between a semi normal state of mind, to a weird depressed place, where nothing feels , sounds and looks good. to where i am now, episodes of what id call mild mania, not quite extreme but, enough to keep me up since yesterday morning. its not that i dont want to sleep, its more of i dont feel like i should or need to. this all effects my home life, my work , all that jazz. when im in a manic state, i want to go, i want to do. i dont get violent, but i can get kind of upset or frustrated.
when im in the depressed state, and at work, i usually start to get cynical, dont talk much, and generally just lost my reason to care.
what do you think this could be?
a counselor 6 months ago suggested i could be cyclothymic, but every episode feels more intense, and im losing my "balance". any help, well, helps.