Okay so I should start off by stating that I am only seventeen. I've always been a bit depressed because of things going on in my life. But in the over this last year I have met someone, and we have been together for quite sometime now. She makes me very happy, like I could do anything or be anyone. Sometimes she spends a night or two at my house over the weekends, we never seem to tire of each other. Though she does have to go home eventually.
I've noticed over the past several months that when she leaves I become depressed, I used to be so depressed that I would cut just to make myself feel better. But now it is different, I can't bear to do that because I know that it hurts her.
I feel these symtoms now and I don't think that they are by any means normal. Maybe you all can help me?
>Pain, numbness in the hands or body in general
>hysteria( crying uncontrollably)
>severe migraines( I have them regularly but these ones hurt the most)
>staring off into space for hours not moving( I don't really know what goes though my mind during these times, it's like my brain is on standby or empty of all thoughts)
>stomach pains/ nausea
>horrible nightmares( this only happens sometimes...)
And that's about it that I can remember. I think that these things aren't really normal. That's why I posted them here, I refuse to see a psychologist, that sort of thing looks bad on a High Schooler's record. So I was wondering if you could give me some insight. I had seen something on TV that sort of sounded like this but I can't recall the name, so here I am.
And please, don't just write me off because I am a "kid" or whatever, I am just here looking for some help, is that too much to ask? Thanks in advance for your thoughts.