i have emotions and my biggest one is saddness for other people, i do feel joy and sometimes i feel depressed.
my mind is cloudy and i always wonder..have i always felt this way? even as a kid..have my eyes always felt like they were seeing a dream?
when i look in the mirror im surprized to see the face looking back at me but i know its me
because no one else could ever be me, im happy when im around people but sometimes its different as well as being alone is different. You know that feeling when you have come so far in life and it feels like you cant belive it? it kinda feels like that but constantly! i feel like i think to much and im better off to just go with it. i have no intentions of hurting myself just inside i feel sarrow..i seriously dont get why? what the ***l did i do to deserve this? i have a 'Great job!, im leaving for vaca in a couple days which is awsome and when i come home im moving in a beautiful house thats never been lived in! i dont get why my mind has to be so cloudy! sometimes it feels like im just a hotel for other peoples emotions..i dont know.. its just not who i want to be.. i want to be me. and i know one day im gonna figure out why and im gonna solve this issue. its possible it has something to do with eating habits, or missing home, certain feelings you dont feel anymore such the smell of your parents house or just something familiar! i apologize i tend to drag on but i feel like im getting somewhere.