I'm not sure how to describe the feeling - it is either restlessness or agitation. My body feels as though it has energy and wants to go on a run or do physical work, although at the same time I am exhausted mentally and physically. I just want to lay down and sleep or rest. But when I try to sleep or rest the feeling of agitation/restlessness gets worse. I need to keep active so it doesn't feel so bad, but I am so tired It's deppressing. At its worst my right kidney area is painful and I need to drink a lot of water. My stomach cramps and my right leg thigh muscle goes into mild tension spasms. My whole body seems tense but I cannot release the tension through relaxation. I also get feelings of wanting to cry that come and go.
This feeling began about 8 months ago following an introduction of an antidepressant called Triphyinal Tricyclic (Spelling?).
The condition I have discribed above is thought by Doctor's to be connected to deppression and high stress that I suffer at work and home. I do not agree. Their medications are not working, even with valium or xanax the feeling is still there although I get sleepy for a few hours then I am looking for another tablet. Antideppressants make me feel weird and do not lift my mood to feeling good, I just feel like a zomby on them. Mood stabilizers - Lithium and Valpro do the same thing as well as worsen my symptoms as described above.
My thought is that something in my body is producing to much or not enough of something - my guess is a hormone or similar. What is it?
Can you help please, I'm lost and desperate for answers.?