i have had this since about May now. i mean i've had terrible sleep for as long as i can remember. (after thinking about this i realized 2 things in my life happened when my sleep started to worsen: having to get up early for high school, and my tonsils being removed, though i'm stating this cause i'm thinking about every cause) but it's gotten worse since then, as i had a huge fight with my parents then and my sleep got worse. basically i have this very unrefreshing sleep combined with anxiety and an overall unrefreshing, and waking up, feeling terribly anxious like i was just fighting a war last night, not very good sleep that leaves me completely half awake the entire day, anxious i'll get in crash, anxious about unpredictable things happening (my reaction time and memory are shot) and everything seems unreal. (i'd like to say i don't think it's part of some mental health thing, as i had the same problem when i was given anxiety meds during the day or at night. why just last week i was driving in a daze, on a dark stormy day, and decided i would ride my bike. next thing i know, i'm ducking in a forrested area off the bike path, wondering why i did this...it's like my brain is so deprived of sleep i'm forgetting how to have common sense.
i've read EXTENSIVELY on sleep disorders, mental health, and overall health. i eat relatvely healthy and excersize every other day. i wake up at 9 ish and get sleepy around midnight, which is amazing considering i used to go to bed at 3 to 4 am last year. i'm a 20 year old male who is on the verge of a breakdown, as i yearn for sleep but it isn't coming. i'm in physically very good health, besides having low blood pressure (which is good i think) and the anxiety i have that comes with poor reaction time and how able and ready i am for the world, but am too sluggish and tired all the time to respond. please, i know there are people suffering like me. this is a 24/7 365 day a year torment for me, i enjoy very little being in this state of mind, and constantly fear not only for my safety, but the other people driving next to me, how i am having to redo my elementary algebra class a 3rd time, despite knowing full well if i were more awake i would of aced it and moved on with my life, knowing i could have more relationships, be more happy and in general not rely on the internet to help me, as my doctor has labeled my insomnia induced hypochondria...as such (and reminding me to get back on anti depressant meds, which made me slightly more zombified, and a therapist that is no longer of help as i am too tired to converse or to actually know what i'm really thinking)
i hope this wasn't too long. thanks. (i'm going for a second sleep study next week but was hoping i could eliminate some of what i thought was wrong with me)