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  • Posted By: Kumbricia
  • September 6, 2008
  • 07:06 PM

I have always been a worrier with a small touch of OCD. I have been diagnosed as having depression (not sure if I really agree with that), and was put on anti-depression meds. They didn't help the depression and make the anxiety a lot worse, so I don't take them.

I am very into alternative healing, and always try it first if I am able. I am a massage therapist and have worked at a massage therapy school, so I am well up-to-date on many many alterative treatments. I have tried everything from old wive's rememdies to homeopathic treatments, meditation, vitimin therapy, aromatherapy... you get the picture. The only alternative treatment I have not tried is acupuncture because there is no way I can afford it.

My physchatrist has tried me on Klonapin, Xanax, Neurontin (that was to help my migraines as well, which don't respond to any treatment other that narcotic pain meds), muscle relaxers, etc. None of these things have helped my anxiety... all they do is put me to sleep - and that's on the smallest dosage available.

My anxiety has worsened severely because I have no money and cannot work. For some ungodly reason, having a job increses my anxiety so badly that I will end up crying the whole time I'm at a job, and just the thought of having to get a job makes me vomit from nerves. I also have a few problems (migraines that put me in bed several days of the week, knee pain, and others) that make finding (or holding down) a job impossible to me.

These medical and psycological problems make working impossible, but if I can't come up with the money for rent, I will be evicted this month. My parents have been generous in helping me out with my bills, but they can't afford to any longer. So... I feel I have conditions that won't let me work, but they are not "bad enough" or whatever to get any governmental or even charity assistance. Most doctors just dismiss everythins as "being in my head" (read:doesn't exsist), so they don't try very hard to help.

I'm at the end of my rope. I feel constantly suicidal because I can't immagine having to live on the streets and lose my pets, apartment, and everything I own.

This constant anxiety is in total control of my life, no matter how hard I try to deal with it. I feel like I have tried everything and I'm at the end of my rope.

My psychiatrist told me the best thing I can do is move to another state where they have a research hospital that might be able to help with my problems. This is impossible for many reason, especially the cost of moving.

Does anyone have any suggestions? I am beyond desperate at this point and I am running out of time.

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  • Come on, do you really want to live like this the rest of your life. Take a career interest inventory and find some fun type of job, like working at the zoo...anything to get you out...now, if you want to control your life or have life control you, you may want to try EFT training, especially since you are in to alternative therapies....good luck...and I'd drop the psychologist...take up square dancing...move to a fun town...http://www.gloriaarenson.com/learn_eft_emotional_freedom_technique.html http://www.emofree.com/
    Monsterlove 2921 Replies
    • September 7, 2008
    • 04:37 AM
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  • 1. Of course I don't want to live my life like this. That's why I'm trying to get help. 2. I've taken many career inventory tests and they were of no help in actually getting a job. Just because you like something or even because you're good at it, doesn't mean you can get a job doing what you want. 3. I have knee pain so badly that I can't stand or walk (let alone square dance) for more than a few minutes a day. That severely limits my job options, not to mention the fact that I would probably have to call in sick two or three times a week because of my migraines. 4. I have about twenty dollars TO MY NAME right now. I can't afford to eat let alone take more classes or move to another town. 5. (as a side-bar) I actually did apply at the zoo before my knee got so bad and I didn't get the job.
    Kumbricia 5 Replies
    • September 7, 2008
    • 04:55 AM
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  • You didn't mention the knee pain; that could be causing a lot of your problems. You probably qualify for free medical assistance through your state right now, especially if your parents have been helping you out. Your knee needs medical attention, of course, and maybe once that happens, you can be on your road to recovery. I can only urge you to practice the EFT several times a day. Funny, I picked up on the zoo. Maybe once your knee is rehabilitated, you can re-apply and follow up with calls and visits. You may be living with relatives soon until your knee re-hab...
    Monsterlove 2921 Replies
    • September 7, 2008
    • 04:32 PM
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  • I can understand your pain. The best book out there I've read is called "From Panic to Power" by Lucinda Bassett. She also has a 15 week course where you listen to various dvds weekly. It's a lot of mental work but you can re train you mind when you are panicking to that degree. I would recommend you look it up. I think it's the Midwest Center for Stress if I remember. It saved my life.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • September 10, 2008
    • 01:19 AM
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