im 29 y.o. single caucasian female. over the past year my health has deteriorated rapidly.
i was a healthy young adult living in manhattan ( no drugs and i dont drink alchohol ), my life was great, then one day while walking down a midtown sidewalk, i collapsed. the world started to black out, i lost my breath, my heart started to pound out of my chest and i felt like i was being pulled from my body. then .. nothing. i was unconscious for ten minutes. i woke up in an ambulance with a headache, a cracked tooth and 7 stitches across my chin.
recovery has been elusive, forcing me to ask a friend in florida for help.
since that day i have been been unable to function like before. every time i stand up my eyes glaze over and my balance is completely thrown off. it usually takes 5-10 seconds for my balance and eyesight to return. once im up and moving, within 2-3 minutes i begin to feel a slight loss of breath and my heart rate increases and i begin to feel slightly dizzy. this condition increases rapidly the longer i am standing or walking unsupported. if standing/walking for up to 5-7 minutes i am at the point of collapse.
i have been dependent on my friend for care and support. after my collapse i moved in with my friend in florida and for many months i was under a sever depression about my condition and my losses.. feelings as if my life was over and no hope to start over. so depressed i lost interest in daily activities and personal hygiene. its been a year and only recently have i realized how my depression has been aggravating my condition.
my cracked tooth has broken, my gums are swollen, my ear hurts, my teeth hurt, it hurts to chew solid food, i have headaches, i have chronic fatigue, i feel trapped in bed or on the sofa because of the dizzyness, i have low blood pressure and poor circulation, my skin is dry, im surviving on ramen noodles and microwave pizza water and soda.. so add poor nutrition to the list, im tired, im hungry for a sandwich, im depressed and unmotivated, i feel disconnected from all the things i used to enjoy, memory loss, im distracted like i have a.d.d... i cant think or focus clearly like "brain fog", i feel overwhelmed, confused, my neck is sore when i sit up, my spine gets sore when im standing, and to hide from all this discomfort i just stay in bed and sleep or watch movies while laying on the sofa.
every single day ive given up on myself. every single day ive not tried. every single day .. for almost a full year now .. ive gotten worse.
i have no insurance, no job, no money and no hope.
so im asking you, or someone, or anyone who can help.
i need a doctor. i need a dentist. i need care and i dont have a way to provide for myself. i need to be diagnosed and treated so i can have my life back.
ive crumbled to tears while typing this.. i wish i had some comfort right now..
i dont want to be one of those people you hear about "that girl didnt see a doctor, died from an infection" and you think "aw how sad" but dont actually feel sad.. and in minutes return to your life and forget about.
i still want to do something with my life. i still want to have a chance. and i need help but I dont know whats wrong with me ..