I was diagnosed with DID abouot 2 and a half years ago when I was suffering from non-epileptic partial seizures by the truckload on a daily basis and personalities started appearing after them. At first I was really disturbed by it and I was trying to get the help as the neurology department at hospital had referred me to psychiatry. However the psychiatry dept completely ignored me for months and months and so I learned to get on with it. Now, despite a few hitches from time to time I don't think I could ever consider trying to get them to integrate! I know that I am not a full person (and it truely shows when I get depressed and dissociate myself as all that remains it what is left of myself as I detach from the other fragments of myself) but if they integrated now I would be incredibly lonely, I would miss the people that they have become in my head and (this part makes me sound like a coward but I couldn't think of how to rephrase) I wouldn't have them to hide behind when my life problems overwhelm me! They fill up a part of my life that I don't want to be without now. I have always had a dissociative streak since a very early age and I know it is an escapist way to my problems but it is how I deal with them as there will always be another in my head who will be able to deal with it. In a way it feels to me like my head is more organised like this (though it doesn't help me with my memory :P)
So I guess what I'm wondering is if anyone has this "disorder" and feels the same way, or if they don't, why?